Monday, December 31

day by day

Day by day
Day by day
O, dear Lord three things I pray
To see Thee more clearly
Love Thee more dearly
Follow Thee more nearly
Day by day
Follow Thee more nearly
Day by day

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Friday, December 28

long holiday

stay off as long as this condition
enjoy holiday as long as I can
never create a 'hope' as long as you want
just do everything as long as I need to do

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Monday, December 24

OMY

For: someone..
that got a 'hit' at my first-seeing
and became a reason of my smile

gomawooo for this 2-3 years..

I'm officially missing you~

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Saturday, December 22

G~

For many many many times,
I failed to post new story from my mobile. And I found a good reason behind this matter, I have great audit's team, I have G in my life ^^
Everytime I write bad stories, bad experiences, bad wordings, bad thoughts, bad plannings, bad ideas, bad emotions.. all about bad things, in the end of posting time, it would fail automatically.
After that, I'll understand: G comes to me, knocks my heart, and says, let's forget this, we have others thing to do..
I knew that I'm not perfect, I can't forget or forgive easily, I still need to stand in my 'position' too, that I have rights on it..
How lucky I am, I have a trully friend that would never ever to leave me alone, a friend that knows me so much, more than me.. And I believe on Him, thank you G~
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Wednesday, December 19

tsk tsk tsk..

# a moment ago

right now, this time,
I still want to sl@p her face.. REALLY!!
#BadMouth #BossyGirl

Tuesday, December 18

doubt

I got my Xmas gift in early time.. #too early

Actually, I still had a doubt in my mind, since this 'gift' would affect my life, in a long term way. If I take this opportunity, I should leave my life as a FE and continue on the B line. Never ever predicted this scene on my own life..

Mike said: "if you had a doubt.. some part of yours was started to want / get on it"
#close enough..
And the real mine: all I need right now is just a lil support..

If you say A, I'll do A bravely.
If you choose B, I'll do B happily.
I appreciate people that want to take 'responsibility' of my life, since I did that. And that means a lot for me.. Love it

So far, I got 2 votes, Simbok n Mike said a yes..
The next one, we'll promise to meet at cabe's tree again for tonight, and talk about this issues later.
Please, come in.. Jebaaal
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Sunday, December 16

wrong intention

It wasn't talk about different stories, different times, different places.
It just dealing with the same one..

Aigoooooow, never change, huh..
Don't worry, we were playing with the same ego. And ... less expectation

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Saturday, December 15

bobby kim - as time goes by

This is the best "As Time Goes By" song that I heard.
And I really like it..

Bobby Kim - As Time Goes By..



As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through

#singging

Thursday, December 13

as time goes by


Finally, I found this song ^^
I found it, I found it on my new playlist #uhyeaaaaaah..

At first, I only heard this verse, Bobby Kim - As Time Goes By.
Nice beat, nice title, nice feeling. I got 'the feeling' only by hearing his song.
There is 'something' to tell, a message there.. You know laaa, "As Time Goes By.."

Next, when I get curiosity, I usually want to make sure based on my hearing, what does he/she mean?
Then I start to search lyrics, to know it more, the message..

Enk ink eeenk....
I found the first singer (for me, I didn't really know, who is the original singer)
Bobby did a re-make, with cool beat of course, and it's nice verse for me.
The first is Yoon Mi Rae aka T(Tasha), I knew her from RM, she is Queen of Korean Hip Hop yoooooow #swaaag!!

...

Oups, she did it on the slow or ballad verse,
an 'apa' song #gulp

...

As time goes by.. will our memories fade?

I'll would sing this song on Bobby's verse, with a nice beat,
and that's why I'll try to learn and accept everything in good mood
#Smiling Tears

T(Tasha) - As Time Goes By


Not a day goes by that I don't need you in my life
was it something that I did?
tell me why..

And I can't get pass the pain to you, our love is just a memory..
Gradually you slip away,
and all I can say is stay..

Can somebody please..
stop this hurt inside although
your love for me is changed, *ooohh*
after all the pain you've caused that I still can't get you out of my mind
no matter what you say I can't let go..

Chorus:
As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I don't wanna go on
without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you
will come back to me


I'm begging you please..
stop this hurtin inside although
your love for me is changed *oohh*
After all the pain you've caused that I still can't you get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

Chorus:
As time goes by
Will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I don't wanna go on
without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you


Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you even stop to cry?
In my heart you'll always stay
don't let us slip away

Though I've tried I can't let go
you are stil the one for me
we can work it out in your love I still believe
you are the one

chorus:
As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I won't let you go on
without me in your life
because in my heart we're meant to be in love

As time goes by...

Tuesday, December 11

121212

twelph.. twelph.. twelph....
This is my prayer tonight..
Thank God for some people that you sent for me today, I'm so blessed.
Work.. Family.. Chingu.. Play.. Time.. Hang-out.. Future.. New target..
This would be a good starting point of me, for a better future, 'enough' one is enough..
Even, I have a greedy wish..
I hope, I could hold each of them tightly like before. Well, that's hard.. #TheUglyTruth
*this should be posted at 121212000000
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smile

In the middle of rush hours and lots of pressures, me, myself, suddenly smile on what I had =D

Monday, yeah.. this is first day of the week, and it means lots things to do. I met some smile-stealers today. It's not a big problem actually, but when it comes more than 5 in a rows? #gulp, I said to myself "I'm gonna be crazy"; of course not only once.. many, many times

And thank you for the simple chat we had, and jokes that we made, I got a bless-smile, b*b

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Sunday, December 9

lie

Lie..
contains 99% of the truth

That means, I or we usually get angry and mad because of the truth #PoorFact
How can 1% thing do a mess? #ReallyPoor

But, don't worry, I'm lil bit different.. You could do so many many times lies to me. And if I find 100% lie myself, a lie lie; a lie that contains 99% of lie; lie-ception, and the crucial one, I can't tolerate it.. Don't wake up the sleep-lion, you'll see a worse side of mine

Note: it isn't a threat, just a kind of protection or self defence from the wild world that I don't want to join on it

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Saturday, December 8

really something

Hmmmm, it's really something that I (still) have strong senses, while I never try to use it, exercise it, or think about it,, but.. It develops itself, realize or not, like it or not, it still there.. And maybe, it's improving

Start from a chaining message from church, Simbok got a sms, "Please, pray for us, our child had fallen from the plafon. He need to operate, but his body isn't ready right now..". This message was from Pak David

First thought on my head: why on the plafon? Errrrrr, want to suicide, a stupid option, like there is no other place like plafon. Not recommended..
Second, what is plafon? Uh, a bottleneck in my brain, I just want to make sure, that plafon is something like root-top or ceiling or whatever, and Simbok said it right.
Third, aaaah.. it isn't a suicide, impossible.. No need to do like that. So, what was he doing right there?

In a glance, based on what I saw n read, I said to Simbok: maybe 'that' place.. In this kind of season, sometimes they have flooding time, poor them. Perhaps, he wanted to repair the plafon? Perhaps..

.. then, we continuing to watch a movie, Perfect Pitch ..

Next, I got it.. I read and heard about it.. That that that place is the same place that I thought before. And I told it to Simbok, what was running in my mind, and it meant, I was right before..
Such a bad plot, hope the best for this boy, God bless him n the famz..

Side story of mine..
Everytime I pass to that place, my mind always 'playing' itself, imagines about some good things, (of course) that never really happen to me, just a kind of dreams or wishes. But somehow, in the same time, I don't have good feelings on it, it isn't an easy thing to tell, but I don't like it.. No other reason..

Yeaaah, that really happened again.
Should I proud with this kind of thing? Nope.. This is really something to me. Guessing lots of plots, trying to build scenario, thinking this thinking that, need more data, info or even facts.. These are wasting energy and feeling #pheew

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Friday, December 7

another answer

I was doubt, I am..
And even this night, I thought that I can't sleep well.. Or maybe I don't want to sleep

So, I tried a lil experiment, I opened bible on my mob, I chose Mazmur directly, because there are lots of 'good words' there, promising words.. Then, for the first n second numbers, I chose them randomly.

And this is what I've got: Mazmur 4 : 4

When I was trying to shut my mouth silently, with all of my doubt,, I got help, an answer..
This is how's HE work, God bless

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Thursday, December 6

# My First Intention

Remember..


If you are criticizing, you are not being grateful. 
If you are blaming, you are not being grateful. 
If you are complaining, you are not being grateful. 
If you are feeling tension, you are not being grateful. 
If you are rushing, you are not being grateful. 
If you are in a bad mood, you are not being grateful.

Gratitude can transform your life. 
Are you allowing minor things to get in the way of the life you deserve?



Aye.. ayeee, Sir..

But when I tried to forget 1 thing, a new BIG thing has come back to me.
Hmmmmmm, maybe this is an answer for me, when I asked 'newcomer' or 'replacement' from God. Actually, I didn't expect that this would create new issues, but it DID..

So, in this post, I would like to CLARIFY my motives..

When I'm confused, I'm shaky, I'm in depression and could not believe the fact, I still have the BASIC here, seriously..

I am NOT responsible for the PAST, but I WOULD responsible for the FUTURE,
not because of the past, but because I care..

# My First Intention - before I heard anything..


Regards
Lee

Sunday, December 2

lee hyun - heartache

A perfect song that could be describe mine now..


Lee Hyun - Heartache


Turn around and look at me, 
stay by my side turn your head
You only look at other places like always
you always look at far places

Living while seeing you love that other person
Do you know that is my love for you?

My heartache, only looking at you, not having you with me
I become used to it like a habit so I don’t even know that it hurts
Though tears form, I don’t say anything and I need to smile
But like a habit, I foolishly love you in front of you
So tears come

If you are suffering even once
please look at me

Don’t cry, don’t cry, I pray as I look at you
Do you know this hope of mine?

My heartache, only looking at you, not having you with me
I become used to it like a habit so I don’t even know that it hurts
Though tears form, I don’t say anything and I need to smile
But like a habit, I foolishly love you in front of you
So I smile like this

My heartache, only looking at you

Pretending not to know, pretending that it’s not, pretending I didn’t see it
This is the love that I secretly learned as I met you every single day
Though I long for you, I want to hold onto you, I want to just hug you
But I couldn’t even say the words, I love you, and I turned away
Though I long for you

my heartache

Because I don't want to be an option.. hate it.. jjinjjaa....

#singging in the rain
Lee Hyun – My Heartache

Do you ever know the hope of mine? Or guessing it?
Nope..
My hope was a hopeless hope.
And the worst, this is my karma #ouch
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Saturday, November 24

first gag of the year

My phone, the first thing that reminded me 'bout my bday..
Not only single time, but many times in my bed times.. hwaaaaaah, do you love me so much, huh? she got mad #error, and rang many times, so I should set silent on it
*I forgot my dream T__T, was't I have a dream? dunno :p

On the morning, I did a gag to Simbok..
I gave IDR '500.000' for paying arisan, 4 reds (100.000) and a pink (10.000), they have same basic colors, but with different values. Simbok didn't realize it, ekekekekek.. Second try, still didn't know.. Until she saw my big smile, and was checking seriously again, hahahaaa.. She's so innocent ^^

Then I got a gag from my staff..
I got a call at 7.20, someone had pick me at that early hour, and I missed my breakfast. I didn't have breakfast when I went to office, so galooooo.. I meant, hungry every time

Lots of funny stories that happened today.. Thank you for all efforts, and thank you for make me smile all the time..
Even I can't sing "I love your smile", this year, I promise #eh, that I'd make you sing that song for me

turutut.. tuturutut.. turutut.. tuturutut.... You love my smile :D

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Wednesday, November 21

lesson of life



There's something I learned in life. 
You can never know when happiness is coming. 
But you can tell when sadness is about to come.

-- Seo Yi Soo - A Gentleman's Dignity


#singging..

I know something’s gone awry but I feel like going on 
I know I could be wrong but I also could be right

cinderella's step-sister

Babbooo..
Yaaaa, this is impossible.. Finally, I found the Cinderella's part, Kitty-Girl is Cinderella.. How come!?!?!?
I can't believe it

So, which char should I learn from?
Kitty-girl, a childish girl who can bring joy in the weird situation. Well, that's good point. But, is there any persons like this, still said 'love' and do 'love' to others, while the others always do bad or even hate her #unpredictable

Or the Witch-girl, a heart-less girl, cold like a rock-ice, always do and say not polite, even rudely to everyone. I said, Everyone.. She thought, she brings the curse, everytime n everywhere she is.. Poor little girl, I can't imagine how about her childhood was, it should be difficult to her.

How come people could be born and 'built' like that.. It looks like an Angel and a Devil,, a Heaven and a Hell,, Miracle and Curse..
Which one should I learn from....

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Tuesday, November 20

as time goes by

Today, I can't find this song..
#curious #curious #cueious
The boy's voice, with a lyric "as time goes by, lala~lalalalaaa~~"
Hope, this song is mean to me.. Since I start to like the words, "as time goes by", and this song always echoing in my mind

it's all 'bout waiting.. just waiting..
as good as miracle, or as bad as curse

should I still believe in miracle?
as time goes by, Lee.. as time goes by....

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Saturday, November 17

3 months

3 months..
not yet?
I'm ready for 6, 9, 12.. or even more
And that's mean .....
As time goes by
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Wednesday, November 14

go go go - part 2

Next stop, 'temu kangen' with Cleo plus Maxi.. It's been several months, I didn't meet Cleo, she got taller n bigger fastly, good girl.. It's husky, no doubt on it. While Maxi, refers to his name, bigger than Cleo. Maxi is a Herder plus Golden, that's why he is so gigantic.. Anyway, both of them are 'prengus', smelling badly like meatball, because they eat it everytime #ClosingNose
But, I still had fun, doggy is human best friend ever #underlined

Third stop, the place that I really want to come, Semawis or China Town of Semarang.. We could "play" on that place,, walking around, hang out, do some culinary, enjoy events or some performs. Ah, we could shopping to, with local or even CungKwok-ren *I miss-spell it
Unfortunately, we only enjoyed our time for a while because of the rain-drops. At least, I knew how it looks like, always try something new, explore the world ^^

Last stop, it should be Paragon, we planned for watching Skyfall or Paranormal Activity 4 at 9pm. Cancelation.. Because it was raining, and we didn't have dinner, only Tahu Bakso, Siomay, n Pastel Singapore before, than we chose to have dinner.
Last place was Super Penyet, a big portion of penyetan #jinjjaaa.. Plus Lekker Klenger (jumbo size), #mastaaaa..

Best things, best time, best experiences, when I do it all with my brothers and sisters ^^

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Tuesday, November 13

...

my brother is going back to another home
and I can't stop this teardrops

oooh, dear God,
tell him that I love him so much

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Monday, November 12

best dialog ever

Xixixixixi..
I still remember that night #giggle

This is the best dialog ever that happened yesterday,
between Mic n Mike
talking about promising land

Somehow, I like all things named "Michael"..
Because, I chose my baptism name, "Michelle" for matching well with name "Michael" (brother's)

Notes: Michael is an Angel..
Plus: So do I.. Me, Michelle, coming as an Angel too ^^

go go go - part 1

First Planning
Go to jogja, playing go cart or go to goa pindul, eating at Dae Jang Geum, walking2 in amplaz, and watching Skyfall or Paranormal Activity 4.

Tet tooot.. U-turn.. U-turn..
We went to Ambarawa n Semarang.

First stop, Gereja Bethany Indonesia Ambarawa, we were watching some people doing preparation for an event of church's birthday. Singers, guitarists, pianist, tambouriners,,, wow they did it well, dude.. #amaze
They have talents or even skills to bring joy to others #BigSmile. Someday, I should come on this kind of perform, a must..
Oh God, I worship you #singging
Small church, with a high spirit.. Be bless ^^

Next part, I'll post it later..
15minutes ago, we've just arrived at home
so so so tired n so so so sleepy

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Sunday, November 11

raining

Dear rain,
you love me perfectly so much

And the best song for this timing..

No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
Teadrops in the rain~~~
#singging

Regards,
me, the one that still have hopes,
and start to lose it one by one

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Friday, November 9

what season is this?

Spring.. Summer.. Falling.. And the rain....
#singging

Actually, what season is this?
My shelter looks beautiful, lots of blooming flower *spring?
On this hot air *summer?
And some of them are falling *falling?
In end of the year, this month *rain?

Even the sky is ...
#singging

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Tuesday, November 6

I know


I know something’s gone awry but I feel like going on 
I know I could be wrong but I also could be right

And I feel the earth is turning faster before I saw you there

I feel the sky is spinning lighter before I saw you there 
And I see the things are not the same again 
Cause you’re here cause you’re there cause you’re everywhere

Now I know how my times can be still in the way 
Hope this could last until we find brighter days 
I know how my times can be still in the way 
I hoping this could last until we fade away

I know something’s gone awry but I feel like going on 
I know I need to say good bye for 
I’m off for the brand new days with you

#singging..

Saturday, November 3

mong..

Been a few days, I didn't post anything here.. (7 days)
Actually, so many things I want to write about it
and I tried not to do it

What I'm going to talk about today?
# moooooooong..
Nothing.. I.. forgot about it
# dooooooh

So, let's do this quickly..
Welcome my November ^^

And I tried to guess lil' thing, because I didn't know it exactly.. Never do a check-up..
Base on my research, I think, I'm an A (blood type)..
would be better if I'm not an A.. but, I did the things A did # gulp

Saturday, October 27

tet tooot

What am I doing?
There is an event at church, I don't know its detail exactly, kind of praise and worship *I think

So, 4.10pm, started to prepare. 4.45pm went to church. 5.00pm, here I am, home again, wkwkwkwk..
The security said, it would start at 6pm #aaaaaaw

5watts here..
And all I want to do is just some sleeeeeeep

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deugun

aigooow,
it has been a long time for deugun-deugun-time
without any preparation
and, I have no idea, what am I talking about o___O
*half-awake

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Wednesday, October 24

baboo

It should be a song for you,
I love this song very much..
And when I wanted to give it to you, you 'refuse' it..
So, here I am, the Baboo..


--- baboo ---

Sunday, October 21

Bloody Sunday

It's been a long time,
I didn't see blood directly

Several minutes ago, I saw it..
touched it
even the smell don't go from my nose >_<
*feel like vomiting

T___T

Friday, October 19

gone

It's only need a second..
for a Sublime to crash or clash or damage
It's one a million for this possibility..
and I got a bless 5 minutes ago, I got that #gulp

all of my-to-do-list notes that I wrote temporary, all the things that I should do and must to do, the memoirs, my notes, my tasks, everything bout works, was GONE.. #big gulp

hmmmmm, it wasn't happen once, this was N times O___o
I never save my temporary notes, or backup or even save them in a proper file..
good job, Lee.. it's a 'blow' job..

#shaking #shocking #shaking
eotteokeeeeee
T__________________T

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Wednesday, October 17

because it's you

I keep getting scared because I love you
I worry that you might get farther if I get closer
So I can’t even talk like a fool

My heart grows faint at the thought of you
I just let out sighs and randomly laugh and cry
It hurts because of you

Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love
I can hold it in several times
Because I only knew you from the start

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you
It hurts so much, it’s so hard but because it’s you, I’m okay

As I always have worried
I look at you, I wait for you and get exhausted
Because of you, I get sad

Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love
I can hold it in several times
Because I only knew you from the start

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you
It hurts so much, it’s so hard but because it’s you, I’m okay

Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you
I keep getting greedy, I keep crying
Because its you, because it’s all you

Monday, October 15

un-normal

when people said: it's hot,
I was sneezing all the time #sad noon

and when it start to rain (cold),
I can't breathe well #sad fact

for me, it's hard to be normal T,,T

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Saturday, October 13

another magic

actually, it isn't magic or miracle
but a chance, free time for me
let's do this training maximally today ^^

#a chance to listen people (like me) on teaching, it's hard time, wkwkwkwk *yawning

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magically

When I hear that one song,
smell that one scent,
hear that one voice,
it seems as if the whole world stopsand I'm forced to

smile or cry,
and that's magic..
because it's ...

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Wednesday, October 10

because it's you

s.u.d.d.e.n.l.y....
hear this song again

mrebes lan mimblik.. aigooooooooow~~~



--- nan gwenchanha ---

hope

#hope #hope #hope
I get any response from you
#hope #hope #hope
if I don't, I'll try later, again and again
#PpuingPpuing

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Monday, October 8

incoming 2

she came on my LINE too
*another galz..

and this one, I commented: how lucky I am?
hope for our best chit-chat ever

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Friday, October 5

incoming

let's talk about the things that could make me excited
#hope to forget my worse

incomiiiing.. she came into my LINE recently
*brace myself

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bla bla blaa

ouch,
I missed one kind of my great dreams this morning

It wasn't about play around with you, which have a good or bad effect on my morning time.
It wasn't about meet the Idols, which I could be so high.
But, it was a dramatic one, while in this case, I did it good, as good as Korean's wave..

This is about 2 girls, sisters.. At first, they had an ordinary live, until the accident happened. *dunno the detail or exact reason
The lil sister got a rare disease (Korean's style), she can't keep her short term memory, she can loose the new one anytime for a second, esp when her beat up or panic state. Nobody could 'handle' it..

Except her older sister.
Actually, she can't too, but older sister is the one that know anything about her, care and love her so much. *do you know everything?
She would make sure, that everthing gonna be 'okay'

Nah, incoming of flower boy..
Older sister likes him #dot
Once upon a time, flower boy come to the shop, lil sister work as a shopkeeper (suddenly, they had a family store) *remember, this is a dream, anything can happen here..
Flower boy met lil sister once.. twice.. third.... #here the feeling come again
If those start to come, there was a time, when lil girl in a rush and mess things. You know the next story, she lost her memory, in front of flower boy. It happened in a flash, no one can't change it. Flower boy got shock, she didn't know him and called him perverted (so Korean).
bla bla blaaa....
Flower boy knew the truth from older sister, an inconvinience truth.

That's all what I've got. I forgot what was my role in there, because I felt 3 of them *still the same, it's a dream.
Imagine, what is the end of the story.. Flower boy that doing the same things for catching lil girl continuously, we called it recursive which dunno about the break. Older sister that always take care lil girl, without caring her love-line herself? Or the lil girl, could she get a chance for living, find her healthy life, and her love story-line too..

D#mn, I still care about detail scene and unpredictable future. Why I'm so talk-active so much about this? *because I like it
Hoaaaaaahm, let's pretend to not knowing it
#closing eyes #searching frequency #hope to continue this dream as usual

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Wednesday, October 3

nan babboo~~

I’m a fool, I’m a fool who only sees you, I love you
No matter what anyone says or teases,
I will be a fool who only sees you

I’m a fool, I’m a fool who only sees you, hold my hand
Hug me, I’m a fool who only loves you

#song for J~~

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Friday, September 28

lullaby

Let's hope, let's sing.. eonjengaaan....

#DugDugDenk
eonjengan i nunmuri meomcheogil
eonjengan i odori geotjigoo
tetsuhan haetsari i nunmuril malyeochogil

kwenchanaaa~~~

*my lullaby

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zombie went to public

Today, some of our staff go to Jakarta, for a bus exhibition. At that moment, I wish, I wanna, I really want to join them, so I could leave anything for a while..
And yaaaaaap, that was a wish only

At the same time, I should go to Prambanan, for 'layat', same wishes before. But, I can't, because I had another promise this evening #gulp

So, I got the impact, I must go home ALONE #jegleeeeeer
I thought a lots scenarios before, and I chose to use mini-bus public #DagDigDug
From the first, I waited too long for the right bus, next I should save my wallet, mob-phone, money on my bag. On the way, I stayed alert, looked for my bag, the others, and the road. And the best thing that I had there, I always yawning all the time, ekekekekekeke.. I don't care laaaaaa~~~
This zombie really enjoy herself :p

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Thursday, September 27

change


DEAL, Dr. Yang..
If we can't handle it anymore, 
who will be responsible for us?

None,
except ourselves..

Wednesday, September 26

zombie

Because I was watching trailer The Deadman Walking?
Actually, it wasn't have an impact, while the quality wasn't good enough. But I found Sarah Tancredi there, so this is the next target ^^

Wasseoooo!!!!
Of course.. Twice in a row, they really have different sense of humor, crashing everything. Just want to make sure, who am I or what am I?
*I hate to play this game

Sim City Game, we called it, Tata Kota..
I was addict on this game, until I realize that I had panda's eyes #sigh, and got dizzy on half of my working time. The most terrible is I did some lies for covering it #begh.
The only truth behind this game, that I like simulation game vert much. And because I could have a time with owoook, just to talk about non-sense things #craziness all the time

On that time, I have chances to meet my brother..
Skyping, chatting, accompaning him watching Animal Planet, joking with our-style-language. This is FUN!! And most of the time, I forget the local time #doooh

I have no idea, why should I sleep?
Puhahahahaaa

That's some reason behind case: sleeping over 1 am

#braaaiiiiiin, give me some braiiin.. I have no brain!!

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Tuesday, September 25

trust

Trust someone who can see 3 things in you:
the sorrow behind your smile,
the love behind your anger
and the reason behind your silence

#hunting

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Sunday, September 23

thank you


Molly: Are you okay? Don't just say you are, because I know what that means - looking sad when you think no one can see you.
Sherlock: You can see me.
Molly: I don't count. What I'm trying to say is, if there's anything I can do - anything you need, anything at all, you can have me. No, I just mean. I mean, if there's anything you need, it's fine.
Sherlock: What could I need from you?
Molly: Nothing. I don't know. You could probably say thank you, actually.
Sherlock: Thank...you.

#sad thing happened

Friday, September 21

GrandMa's Home

Today is GrandMa's 40 days..
Actually, it isn't 40 days exactly, don't worry, it just a kind of tradition only. Unfortunately, me n my siz can't come right now, we had another meeting >___<

Just want write a story that those place, we would always call it GrandMa's Home. Everytime I want to go to that place, I call it GrandMa's Home. When somebody asking my position, I'll answer it GrandMa's Home.
That place is GrandMa's Home, nobody can't change it..

#last memory

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ya-iya-iyaaa


The best way I could do, for loving myself..

Tuesday, September 18

that..

that place..
that time..
the color..
the smell..
the sound..
those things..
those people..
and the feelings....
I really hate them x___x

isn't it creepy?
I still had a feeling about that thing

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Monday, September 17

truth

ouch,
even this lil' girl could tell the truth.. #ashamed


# don't thinking.. don't thinking.. don't thinking....

faith

FAITH is moving,
without knowing..

So do I..

*love this very much

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Sunday, September 16

'kaaay

Sometimes being strong
means not holding back the tears,
but letting them fall.

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Friday, September 14

fall?

Is this fall now?
My shelter is falling

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75th

Today,
it should be her 75th..

saengil chukha hamnida, GrandMa..


with love,
yours

Wednesday, September 12

question

"give 'til it hurt.."

and my question is, " should I ? "

Monday, September 10

the worst time

One kind of a bad time is when we are waiting or queuing in lines.
And those becomes worse if we waiting in place like medical centre.
It would be the worst if we, ourself that need it..

Hmmmmmm, this is my worst time
#dag dig dug
#KeepCalm #KeepCalm

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Nation's siblings

naneun.. michin.. kekekekeke....

I met one of the Nation's siblings in my dream,
Lee Hyori, hahahaaa..
D#mn, she's really hot & sexy
We had a good time as a sister, I meant koplak time :p

Next one, I should try the other Nation's sibling, YJS,
and that would be fun ^^

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Thursday, September 6

10 minutes

just one 10 minutes..
I fell asleep,
only for 10 minutes
And I met you
ahahahahahaaa..
#NiceDream

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Monday, September 3

"apa yaaah.."

Heard people saying: "apa yaaah.."
Then, those words start for echoing in my head
"apa yaaah.."
"apa yaaah.."
*with the same tone
"apa yaaah.."
"apa yaaah.."
*guessing who's responsible for that tone..
"apa yaaah.."
"apa yaaah.."

Finally, I remember
it's absolutely you, J~

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Sunday, September 2

live

Happy Birthday GKI Pajajaran Magelang

#live from operator's room

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Saturday, September 1

iu - good day

My eyes fill with tears, so I lift my head up
I smile a little so they won’t fall
Why are you like this to me, what are you
saying?
All the things we talked about go to the sky
The words I have never said
The words I didn’t know I’d say as I cried
I like you, ******, what do I do?

#eotteokeee~~~

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Thursday, August 30

note: Conakry 01 (simple)


Denpasar, Bali to Singapore (8/30/2012)
[duration: 2.30]
08.05 pm - 10.35 pm
07.05 pm - 09.35 pm

Singapore to Paris (8/30/2012)
[duration: 13.25]
11.55 pm - 07.20 am (+1 day)
10.55 pm - 12.20 pm

Paris to Bamako (8/31/2012)
[duration: 5.40]
02.10 pm - 05.50 pm
07.10 pm - 12.50 am

note: Conakry 01



Denpasar, Bali to Singapore [duration: 2.30]
8/30/2012 08.05 pm - 10.35 pm

Singapore to Paris [duration: 13.25]
8/30/2012 11.55 pm - 07.20 am (+1 day)

Paris to Bamako [duration: 5.40]
8/31/2012 02.10 pm - 05.50 pm

Bamako to Conakry [duration: ???]

---

Bamako to Paris [duration: 5.25]
10/26/2012 10.05 pm - 05.30 am (+1 day)

Paris to Singapore [duration: 12.40]
10/27/2012 12.00 pm - 06.40 am (+1 day)

Singapore to Denpasar, Bali [duration: 2.45]
10/27/2012 09.20 am - 12.05 pm

---

Denpasar, Bali to Yogyakarta
eheheheheheeee....

another smile

when I look at this buddy,
I remember a thing
cemil-cemal-cemol have a Gangnam Style, kekekekeke..
#BlackWhite

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Wednesday, August 29

H-1


#too fast

Tuesday, August 28

the words I couldn't bear to say

We Got Married - WooJung Couple,
I only watch 8 eps of them, and now it's over..
#sad..



the words I (Lee Jang Woo) couldn't bear to say
>___<


--- a sad farewell ---

timezone


how far is that place?
same time in different timezone
#too far
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Monday, August 27

...

so, goodbye
don't cry
and smile..

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Friday, August 24

rare

it's rare, but awesome..

- hope a nice weekend

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Thursday, August 23

guest

GUEST!!!
What kind of guest that thinking too much?
What kind of guest that expecting too much?
What kind of guest that hoping too much?
Baboooo....

Let's stop to be a guest,
and start to be the 'others'
That's a comfort zone..

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Friday, August 17

hope

yesterday,
I thought grandma would come to my dream
she didn't, but You did >_<

I hope I could meet her in several days
so I can hear her message to me

20120817 - glad to know that Emak followed God

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already miss her

who's gonna tease me like she did..
she usually calls me 'Pesek'
she likes to match us with unexpected people
she has good sense of humor
I never saw her on angry mode, never..

because she is an old generation, she has her own taste, the 'old' one
She likes Roti Sobek Jakarta from Jogja
or another bread from Swiss or Wonder
And she likes any kind of ice that taste sour
The new one, I knew that she started to like snacks, Yuppy candies, Goodtime cookies, Pulply Orange too

She likes to watch action movie, esp from west
And sport's event, Olympic, Soccer, Boxing, Badminton, and the others

She loves to travel
Mom said that she almost around Java Island
Anything about geolocation, we believe in her

However,
Pesek couldn't call Mak Yang..
Pesek can't say, play to Emak's home again
Pesek can't be her nice grandchild
#huuuft

20120817 - I don't have grandpa or grandma anymore
T____________T

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counting

1 year 11 months, almost 2 years after the first attack..
this Sept 14 should be her 75th
#unfortunately
same as before, this moment was the worst birthday's present for my aunt (Aug 16)
Aug 17, I would remember this day
20120817 - Rest In Peace our belove, grandma
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her fave song

Anak Allah Yesus namaNya
Menyembuhkan, menyucikan
Bahkan mati, tebus dosaku
Kubur kosong membuktikan Dia hidup
S`bab dia hidup, ada hari esok
S`bab dia hidup, ku tak gentar
Karna ku tahu, Dia pegang hari esok
Hidup jadi berarti s`bab dia hidup
20120817 - Kubur Kosong was the last song that my grandma heard
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Tuesday, August 14

because it's you

Because it’s you,
because it’s you that I love
I can hold it in several times
Because I only knew you from the start
Because it’s all you,
because it’s you that I miss,
I love you
It hurts so much, it’s so hard
but because it’s you, I’m okay

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Sunday, August 12

habit of getting lost

funny that,
I'm still have & save this image

Short story:
I should went to that place, I knew where the place is, but I couldn't imagine, how do I get there.. correctly.. safely.. without missing.. or even forget..

I enjoyed my trip.. Oh, happy day~~
And, I got lost.. Oh, crazy day~~
At the end of the day.. Oh, happy day~~
#happens all the time (LoL)

I'm not saying that I'm bad in location or mapping.
But when I need it, I usually get lost.. waakakakakakak....

Friday, August 10

trial no 5

"God is very good.."
when I was saying that, simbok smile to me..
then, I continue to tell:
"Even I can't make a cake or cookies right now,
somebody would make it for me,
so I could taste them"

-like a boss, yeaaah..

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Tuesday, August 7

his thank-you page

At this time, the author is being tested..
-- 2012-08-07 10.00am

That would be the first experience of his lifetime..
Hope that you could enjoy it, the moment of "dag dig dug" ^^
I'm sure and believe that he could do this.. fighting!!!!

A few days ago, I got this..
And.. there is my name there :D
"unexpected trials", sounds funny, while sometimes I become a part of the trials
# kekekekeke..

translate:
... who have supported and motivated me during the process of preparing the final project, and that helped me when it came unexpected ordeal


--- waiting for the next 2 hours ---

Suzy's Effect

Some pictures of the cool-plex girl, Bae Suzy from "Big"
Her char, Jang Mary idolizes Lady Gaga, so here she is..
source: soompi
same face + different styles == different feelings

If there is a person like this in this world..
# puhahahahaaa
I hope, I have a chance to saw her
# glodhak.. glodhak.. glodhak....

Another Suzy's effect..
[1] When I get bored or accidentally see those, somehow I feel cheerful. She brings the joy, with her look on her face, her char, the way she walks or even run, xixixi.. This brat has cool-plex :p
[2] Every night before my sleeping time, I always listening "Eonjengan". I heard IU's voice, but imagined Suzy's perform. #tsk tsk tsk.. My brain is also affected..


--- and I like the effect ---

Monday, August 6

everything..

I'll never forget
what you did to me
#bad things #good things
and how you made me feel,
#happy #sad

but I will never let you know
that I remember
#every single things

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Saturday, August 4

trust

Trust is better than love,
because you may not always trust the person you love
but you can always love the person you trust

Sounds great.. but.... T___T

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cool-plex

Teheheheheheee..
Short time, and we met again, Bae Suzy
Just because of your char, I started to like you, xixixi

Cold.. heartless.. 'athoz'.. 'koplak'.. and cute too
I called it, cool-plex: cool-complex (devil)
I wonder, why do you act 'sekyaaa' like that?
Ehem, anyway, you still 'sekyaaa', ekekekekeke..

"Dream High 1" is progressing, 50%
"Big" is on my way, slow but sure, 30%
And the next special target, "Running Man - wedding edition", incoming!!!!
3 times in a row, on the short time..
Gomawooo

Maybe.. I said maybe..
She is a kind of an 'ideal' lil-siz for me ^^

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Thursday, August 2

loveholic - butterfly

brrrrrrrrr, another cold morning.. # jacket & blanket are still lacking
and let's getting the heat..
a Korean song, used to support the players in this Olympics


every time I hear this song, I can feel it, that 'feeling' just come to me
"I wish .. ..."




eoriseogeun sesangeun neoreul molla
This foolish world doesn’t know you
huhoe soge gamchwojin neoreul mot bwa
Hidden in regret, doesn’t know you
naneun ara naegen boyeo
I can see that in you
geutorok challanhan neoui nalgae
Your glorious wings

geomnaeji ma hal su isseo
Don’t be afraid, you can do it
tteugeopge kkumteulgeorineun nalgaereul pyeo naraolla sesang wiro
With my burningly trembling wings, I wish to fly over the world

taeyangcheoreom bicheul naeneun geudaeyeo
Shining brightly like the sun is you
i sesangi geochilge magaseodo
The world is like a rough block
bitnaneun sarama
Shining person (who stands out in the crowd)
nan neoreul saranghae
I love you
neol sesangi bol su itge nara jeo meolli
So the world can see, fly far

kkeogyeobeorin kkoccheoreom apeul ttaedo
Even if you hurt like a broken flower
sseureojin namucheoreom chorahaedo
Even when you are shabby like a fallen tree
neoreul mideo nareul mideo
I believe in you, Believe in me
urineun seororeul mitgo isseo
We will trust each other

simjangui soril neukkyeobwa
Feel the sound in your heart
himgyeopge jeobeonohatdeon nalgaereul pyeo naraolla sesang wiro
Unfold those wings and fly above the world

beokchadorok areumdaun geudaeyeo
Even though you’re too much for me, you’re beautiful…
i sesangi chagapge deungeul boyeodo
Even if this world shows you the cold shoulder
nunbusin sarama
Shining person
nan neoreul saranghae
I love you
neol sesangi bol su itge narajwo
So the world can see you, please fly

taeyangcheoreom bicheul naeneun geudaeyeo
Shining like the sun
i sesangi geochilge magaseodo
Even if this world blocks you
bitnaneun sarama
Shining person (who stands out in the crowd)
nan neoreul saranghae
I love you
neol sesangi bol su itge nara jeo meolli
So the world can see you, fly high

one in a million

I never concern about this scene, 
but when I saw this picture # nod.. nod.. nod....

Sarah Tancredi, I agree with you!!
I apologize, Sarah.. because I didn't notice to you before
I've tried to be careful and trying not to screw it up right now

Is there any chance to find the right person? Of course, dull.. 
But, it's one in a million, and I hope I get that 'one' 
# dull+i+sm

--- don't attach to 'things', if they won't last ---

Wednesday, August 1

eonjengan

just some scenes on Dream High 1


And, we have the same habits here..
when I couldn't 'run', then this is an 'escape' that I have
close eyes, close ears, close mouth
to cover all the possibilities from outsiders
to minimize the impact to myself or any other person
If there are musics, it would be nice too ^^

IU.. ai..yu..

the day when I started to love IU ^^


Reason no 1: Her name is IU..
(read) 'ai'.. 'yu'.. It sounds like = I and You
(indo version) 'aiyu' or 'ayu' means beautiful


Reason no 2: I was impressed with her song, "You and I"
(reason no 1 & 2 are related) Actually, I always interested in songs that have title = "You and I"
Because, my first concern and my very first reason, (reason no 0), Park Bom's song, "You and I". There is a 'key' inside the song, a lifetime key. So, I'll never forget about that.
I really never forget about that.. But.., sorry, sometimes I fail >_<


Reason no 3: IU's voice like an angel, pure and perfect
Esp, when she sing with acoustic verse.. nice....


Reason no 4: She dance clock-dance..
Another tic-toc that attract my attention

Monday, July 30

aegyoo..

#dizzy.. happy.. dizzy.. happy
This is my second time, I met Eun Jung, eheheheheee
She has the 'aegyoo' too
How can we swim together? On Carribean? woaaagh..
Even, we played with Kim Joong Kook, woaaaaaagh..
Sounds crazy, right? But, I really enjoy it.. #mrenges
D4mn you, fireworks #dag dig dug..

Hmmmm, next target should be prepare again..
Go go go, Director Lee ^^

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Friday, July 27

eottokeee

I did, then I don't
eottokeee

You did, then you don't
eottokeee

We did, then we don't
eottokeee

eolmanaa~ eolmanaaaa~~

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Thursday, July 26

how long....

hoi, hoooi, my lil-pren
how long.. how long you still be there for me

#singging
I can't live~
I can't live without you~~~

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Monday, July 23

Les Champs-Elysées

# medicine supply is empty, ointment has also been thinned
oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~


# don't scratch, don't scratch, don't scratch..
oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~


# singing randomly
oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~


# nocturnal time
oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~


# counting & playing with the ticking clock
oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~


# posting while singing


new record:
woke up at 9.30am, took a nap for 40 minutes, still awake until 3:55am without coffee
have to work at 8am

oooh, shanzelize~
oooh, shanzelize~~~
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla, bla bla bla
bla bla bla bla bla bla
oooh, shanzelize~~~

--- I guarantee, tomorrow would be a short day for me ---