day by day

Day by day
Day by day
O, dear Lord three things I pray
To see Thee more clearly
Love Thee more dearly
Follow Thee more nearly
Day by day
Follow Thee more nearly
Day by day

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long holiday

stay off as long as this condition
enjoy holiday as long as I can
never create a 'hope' as long as you want
just do everything as long as I need to do

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OMY

For: someone..
that got a 'hit' at my first-seeing
and became a reason of my smile

gomawooo for this 2-3 years..

I'm officially missing you~

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G~

For many many many times,
I failed to post new story from my mobile. And I found a good reason behind this matter, I have great audit's team, I have G in my life ^^
Everytime I write bad stories, bad experiences, bad wordings, bad thoughts, bad plannings, bad ideas, bad emotions.. all about bad things, in the end of posting time, it would fail automatically.
After that, I'll understand: G comes to me, knocks my heart, and says, let's forget this, we have others thing to do..
I knew that I'm not perfect, I can't forget or forgive easily, I still need to stand in my 'position' too, that I have rights on it..
How lucky I am, I have a trully friend that would never ever to leave me alone, a friend that knows me so much, more than me.. And I believe on Him, thank you G~

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tsk tsk tsk..

# a moment ago

right now, this time,
I still want to sl@p her face.. REALLY!!
#BadMouth #BossyGirl

doubt

I got my Xmas gift in early time.. #too early

Actually, I still had a doubt in my mind, since this 'gift' would affect my life, in a long term way. If I take this opportunity, I should leave my life as a FE and continue on the B line. Never ever predicted this scene on my own life..

Mike said: "if you had a doubt.. some part of yours was started to want / get on it"
#close enough..
And the real mine: all I need right now is just a lil support..

If you say A, I'll do A bravely.
If you choose B, I'll do B happily.
I appreciate people that want to take 'responsibility' of my life, since I did that. And that means a lot for me.. Love it

So far, I got 2 votes, Simbok n Mike said a yes..
The next one, we'll promise to meet at cabe's tree again for tonight, and talk about this issues later.
Please, come in.. Jebaaal

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wrong intention

It wasn't talk about different stories, different times, different places.
It just dealing with the same one..

Aigoooooow, never change, huh..
Don't worry, we were playing with the same ego. And ... less expectation

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bobby kim - as time goes by

This is the best "As Time Goes By" song that I heard.
And I really like it..

Bobby Kim - As Time Goes By..



As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through

#singging

as time goes by

Finally, I found this song ^^
I found it, I found it on my new playlist #uhyeaaaaaah..

At first, I only heard this verse, Bobby Kim - As Time Goes By.
Nice beat, nice title, nice feeling. I got 'the feeling' only by hearing his song.
There is 'something' to tell, a message there.. You know laaa, "As Time Goes By.."

Next, when I get curiosity, I usually want to make sure based on my hearing, what does he/she mean?
Then I start to search lyrics, to know it more, the message..

Enk ink eeenk....
I found the first singer (for me, I didn't really know, who is the original singer)
Bobby did a re-make, with cool beat of course, and it's nice verse for me.
The first is Yoon Mi Rae aka T(Tasha), I knew her from RM, she is Queen of Korean Hip Hop yoooooow #swaaag!!

...

Oups, she did it on the slow or ballad verse,
an 'apa' song #gulp

...

As time goes by.. will our memories fade?

I'll would sing this song on Bobby's verse, with a nice beat,
and that's why I'll try to learn and accept everything in good mood
#Smiling Tears

T(Tasha) - As Time Goes By

Not a day goes by that I don't need you in my life
was it something that I did?
tell me why..

And I can't get pass the pain to you, our love is just a memory..
Gradually you slip away,
and all I can say is stay..

Can somebody please..
stop this hurt inside although
your love for me is changed, *ooohh*
after all the pain you've caused that I still can't get you out of my mind
no matter what you say I can't let go..

Chorus:
As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I don't wanna go on
without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you
will come back to me


I'm begging you please..
stop this hurtin inside although
your love for me is changed *oohh*
After all the pain you've caused that I still can't you get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

Chorus:
As time goes by
Will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I don't wanna go on
without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you


Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you even stop to cry?
In my heart you'll always stay
don't let us slip away

Though I've tried I can't let go
you are stil the one for me
we can work it out in your love I still believe
you are the one

chorus:
As time goes by
will our memories fade?
tell me how can you go on
after all that we've been through *ooohh*

I won't let you go on
without me in your life
because in my heart we're meant to be in love

As time goes by...

121212

twelph.. twelph.. twelph....
This is my prayer tonight..
Thank God for some people that you sent for me today, I'm so blessed.
Work.. Family.. Chingu.. Play.. Time.. Hang-out.. Future.. New target..
This would be a good starting point of me, for a better future, 'enough' one is enough..
Even, I have a greedy wish..
I hope, I could hold each of them tightly like before. Well, that's hard.. #TheUglyTruth
*this should be posted at 121212000000

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smile

In the middle of rush hours and lots of pressures, me, myself, suddenly smile on what I had =D

Monday, yeah.. this is first day of the week, and it means lots things to do. I met some smile-stealers today. It's not a big problem actually, but when it comes more than 5 in a rows? #gulp, I said to myself "I'm gonna be crazy"; of course not only once.. many, many times

And thank you for the simple chat we had, and jokes that we made, I got a bless-smile, b*b

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lie

Lie..
contains 99% of the truth

That means, I or we usually get angry and mad because of the truth #PoorFact
How can 1% thing do a mess? #ReallyPoor

But, don't worry, I'm lil bit different.. You could do so many many times lies to me. And if I find 100% lie myself, a lie lie; a lie that contains 99% of lie; lie-ception, and the crucial one, I can't tolerate it.. Don't wake up the sleep-lion, you'll see a worse side of mine

Note: it isn't a threat, just a kind of protection or self defence from the wild world that I don't want to join on it

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really something

Hmmmm, it's really something that I (still) have strong senses, while I never try to use it, exercise it, or think about it,, but.. It develops itself, realize or not, like it or not, it still there.. And maybe, it's improving

Start from a chaining message from church, Simbok got a sms, "Please, pray for us, our child had fallen from the plafon. He need to operate, but his body isn't ready right now..". This message was from Pak David

First thought on my head: why on the plafon? Errrrrr, want to suicide, a stupid option, like there is no other place like plafon. Not recommended..
Second, what is plafon? Uh, a bottleneck in my brain, I just want to make sure, that plafon is something like root-top or ceiling or whatever, and Simbok said it right.
Third, aaaah.. it isn't a suicide, impossible.. No need to do like that. So, what was he doing right there?

In a glance, based on what I saw n read, I said to Simbok: maybe 'that' place.. In this kind of season, sometimes they have flooding time, poor them. Perhaps, he wanted to repair the plafon? Perhaps..

.. then, we continuing to watch a movie, Perfect Pitch ..

Next, I got it.. I read and heard about it.. That that that place is the same place that I thought before. And I told it to Simbok, what was running in my mind, and it meant, I was right before..
Such a bad plot, hope the best for this boy, God bless him n the famz..

Side story of mine..
Everytime I pass to that place, my mind always 'playing' itself, imagines about some good things, (of course) that never really happen to me, just a kind of dreams or wishes. But somehow, in the same time, I don't have good feelings on it, it isn't an easy thing to tell, but I don't like it.. No other reason..

Yeaaah, that really happened again.
Should I proud with this kind of thing? Nope.. This is really something to me. Guessing lots of plots, trying to build scenario, thinking this thinking that, need more data, info or even facts.. These are wasting energy and feeling #pheew

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another answer

I was doubt, I am..
And even this night, I thought that I can't sleep well.. Or maybe I don't want to sleep

So, I tried a lil experiment, I opened bible on my mob, I chose Mazmur directly, because there are lots of 'good words' there, promising words.. Then, for the first n second numbers, I chose them randomly.

And this is what I've got: Mazmur 4 : 4

When I was trying to shut my mouth silently, with all of my doubt,, I got help, an answer..
This is how's HE work, God bless

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# My First Intention

Remember..

If you are criticizing, you are not being grateful. 
If you are blaming, you are not being grateful. 
If you are complaining, you are not being grateful. 
If you are feeling tension, you are not being grateful. 
If you are rushing, you are not being grateful. 
If you are in a bad mood, you are not being grateful.

Gratitude can transform your life. 
Are you allowing minor things to get in the way of the life you deserve?

From The Secret Daily Teachings by Rhonda Byrne

Aye.. ayeee, Sir..

But when I tried to forget 1 thing, a new BIG thing has come back to me.
Hmmmmmm, maybe this is an answer for me, when I asked 'newcomer' or 'replacement' from God. Actually, I didn't expect that this would create new issues, but it DID..

So, in this post, I would like to CLARIFY my motives..

When I'm confused, I'm shaky, I'm in depression and could not believe the fact, I still have the BASIC here, seriously..

I am NOT responsible for the PAST, but I WOULD responsible for the FUTURE,
not because of the past, but because I care..

# My First Intention - before I heard anything..

Regards

Lee

lee hyun - heartache

A perfect song that could be describe mine now..

Lee Hyun - Heartache

Turn around and look at me, 
stay by my side turn your head
You only look at other places like always
you always look at far places

Living while seeing you love that other person
Do you know that is my love for you?

My heartache, only looking at you, not having you with me
I become used to it like a habit so I don’t even know that it hurts
Though tears form, I don’t say anything and I need to smile
But like a habit, I foolishly love you in front of you
So tears come

If you are suffering even once
please look at me

Don’t cry, don’t cry, I pray as I look at you
Do you know this hope of mine?

My heartache, only looking at you, not having you with me
I become used to it like a habit so I don’t even know that it hurts
Though tears form, I don’t say anything and I need to smile
But like a habit, I foolishly love you in front of you
So I smile like this

My heartache, only looking at you

Pretending not to know, pretending that it’s not, pretending I didn’t see it
This is the love that I secretly learned as I met you every single day
Though I long for you, I want to hold onto you, I want to just hug you
But I couldn’t even say the words, I love you, and I turned away
Though I long for you

my heartache

Because I don't want to be an option.. hate it.. jjinjjaa....

#singging in the rain
Lee Hyun – My Heartache

Do you ever know the hope of mine? Or guessing it?
Nope..
My hope was a hopeless hope.
And the worst, this is my karma #ouch

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