I am who I am

... a poem by Russel Kelfer ...

You are who you are for a reason

You're part of an intricate plan

You're a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God's special woman or man

You look like you look for a reason

Our God made no mistake

He knit you together within the womb,

You're just what he wanted to make

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal

No, that trauma you faced was not easy,

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

The Purpose Driven by Rick Warren

Day 2 - You're not a Coincidence

ow-em-gee

... magelang's sky 04:30 PM ...

I enjoyed those for 20 minutes on my way home

it's so amazing, there was a light behind the clouds

2ne1 - ugly (lyric)

2ne1 - ugly

[CL] Balkge useobojiman
Nae mame deulji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

[BOM] Norael bulleobojiman
Amudo deutji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

[DARA] Nan wae ireohke motnan geolkka
Eoddeokhamyeon nado neocheoreom hwanhage
Useobol su isseolkka

[MINJI] Ddo hwagana wae neul wanbyeokhaji mothae
I ggaejin geoul sok motnan moseubeul hyanghae
Tathagiman hae

[BOM] Chyeodabojima jigeum I neuggimi shilheonan
Eodironga sumgoman shipeo
Beoseo nago shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly

[MINJI] Nal shwipge ihaehandago hajima
Mot saenggigo bbiddoleojin nae maeumi neol
Wonmanghaljido molla

[BOM] Mal shikijima nan neowa eoulliji mothae
Geu jalnan nunbit sok chagawoon gashiki nal
Summakhige hae

[MINJI] Dagaojima neoui gwanshimjocha shilheo nan
Eodironga ddeonago shipeo sori chigo
Shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten amudo eopseo

All alone I’m all alone x 2
I’m always all alone

Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten geu nugudo nal anajul saram eopseo

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly


TRANSLATION


[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Download song :: 2ne1 - ugly

it's still free

... jogja's sky 10:26 AM ...

I woke up in the morning (eh?),

and I just saw those ^^

real friend

... REAL FRIEND ...

cares like a mom

scolds like a dad

teases like a sister

irritates like a brother

loves more than a lover

... i miss that person ...

it's free

... jogja's sky 05:53 PM ...

beautiful color

isn't it?

tim - liquid (lyric)

tim - liquid

twenty thousand leagues underneath the sea
waiting for you to rescue me
it’s nothing like i predicted
i had my chance but i missed it
now the water’s washing me away
i am drifting farther from you everyday (everyday)

it’s cold and here that i’ve ever known
but it’s my fault that i am all alone
cause you didn’t know i’ve existed
i hide it underneath all this liquid
now i am struggling beneath the waves
choking on the words that i didn’t say (now it’s too late)

[CHORUS]
feels like i am drowning
i am going under
u can’t be grounded
now i'll always wonder
there is so much more i shoulda said i had my breath instead
and it feels like i am drowning (drowning)

i didn’t have the courage to speak the truth
i wonder if you even had a clue
the current took me right out of reach
there's no turning back cause i am in too deep
u sailed away with someone else
i wish i would have told you how i felt (how i felt)

u showed me the world in a different view
now the only color i see is blue
thought i would be a fool to admit it
now i wish i would have committed
cause i am struggling beneath the waves
choking on the words that i couldn’t say (now it’s too late)

[back to chorus]

i can stay afloat much longer
how much more can i take
cause this current is getting stronger
i am losing my strength
i never thought that i would run out of time
before i’ve made up my mind
to show you how i felt inside
now i am sinking in the tide

[back to chorus] 2x

Download song :: tim - liquid

apaaa~~~

... there will always be a place to talk ...

and here I am ^^

A few days ago, I was angry after hearing the facts about opportunities. And it is still looked clearly in my mind. And I didn't deserve it as a FRIEND..

don't do mathematics, if you act as a FRIEND [it sucks..]

don't share any opportunities as a FRIEND with me, 

please use right term, a PARTNER

*except you want to be honest like I do.. [it would better for us....]

From those moment, I got 2 scenarios..

*thanks to Mike who had shared with me honestly

a TRUST is hard to get, don't waste that

[Good Scenario] I got the REAL facts about our market, even new standard too. And those are good for us.. We could step forward..

[Bad Scenario] Until now, I have been deceived, cheated, and was about to be fooled again.. And that's hurt too..

Could I forget those?

Nope, because I've been witness to the STUPIDITY of HUMAN RACE

those "Money could do anything" is absolutely right [>___<]

I've learned these things ::

1. don't be enslaved by money
2. don't do business as a FRIEND (better to be a PARTNER)
3. don't expect too much with the opportunities

--- do you know, why those hurt me? ---

2ne1 - hate you (lyric)

2ne1 - hate you

ROMANIZATION

[CL] Nun jungmal jaesoo upsuh
Nul manal iyoo upsuh
Nuh gateun namja ii sesang-eh ggallyuhssuh
Jae jae jae jaesoo upsuh
Danjuhmeul selsoo upsuh
Chameumyuh sarang hagin
Shigani nuhmu akkawuh

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[MINJI] Nuhwa-eh gi-uhkeun
Gidarin gi-uhkbakkeh upsuh
Nan chamgo chamgo chamado ggeucheun upsuhsuh
S-saranghandan hanmadi deudgo shipuhsuh
Nan mooshimhan nuh-eh sarang eh

[BOM] Nan jichyuhsuh gibooni duhruhwuh
Jajonshim da burigo jwutneunde cham suhruhwuh
Sarangiran doo geuljaga iijen nan moosuhwuh
Niga cham ooseuwuh

[CL] Nun jungmal jaesoo upsuh
Nul manal iyoo upsuh
Nuh gateun namja ii sesang-eh ggallyuhssuh
Jae jae jae jaesoo upsuh
Danjuhmeul selsoo upsuh
Chameumyuh sarang hagin
Shigani nuhmu akkawuh

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[DARA] Ni ni ni ibesuh naoneun maleun
Guhjitmalii ban sokgo sokgo
Sokado ggeuteun upsuhsuh
Onjenga nuhdo
Nuh gateun yuhjal manage dwelguhya

[BOM] Gibooni duhruhwuh
Happy Ending jooingongiran gun upsuhsuh
Naega babochorom soonjinhaetna
Duh jaldwaesseo jigeumirado nul arasseuni
Dduhnagessuh jungmal jaesoo upsuh

[CL] Nun jungmal jaesoo upsuh
Nul manal iyoo upsuh
Nuh gateun namja ii sesang-eh ggallyuhssuh
Jae jae jae jaesoo upsuh
Danjuhmeul selsoo upsuh
Chameumyuh sarang hagin
Shigani nuhmu akkawuh

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[MINJI] Mami shiwonhae
[CL] Soki hooryunhae
[MINJI] Bbyuh sok gipeun goht ggaji ni gieok jiwuhnae
[BOM] Mami shiwonhae
[DARA] Soki hooryunhae
[BOM] Bbyuh sok gipeun goht ggaji ni gieok jiwuhnae

[CL] Nun jungmal jaesoo upsuh
Nul manal iyoo upsuh
Nuh gateun namja ii sesang-eh ggallyuhssuh
Jae jae jae jaesoo upsuh
Danjuhmeul selsoo upsuh
Chameumyuh sarang hagin
Shigani nuhmu akkawuh

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you


TRANSLATION

[CL] You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[MINJI] My memories with you
Consist only of memories waiting for you
No matter how much I put up with it, and put up with it, it wouldn't end
I-I wanted to hear those words, "I love you"
Your unconcerned love
I grew tired of it

[BOM] It feels terrible I threw all my pride away
I'm sad, is this all I'm worth?
I'm worried, now, of the four-letter word, LOVE
I'm scared, you're hilarious

[CL] You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[DARA] Half the words coming out from your mouth are lies
No matter how many times you deceive me and deceive me, it wouldn't end
Someday you, too
Will meet a girl like you
Once you feel the pain, you'll know how I feel

[BOM] It feels terrible, there was never such thing as a hero
With a happy ending, Was I too naive like a fool?
It turned out for the better since now I figured you out
I'm going to leave, you really suck

[CL] You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

[MINJI] I feel relieved,
[CL] I feel so much better
[MINJI] Down to the bone I've erased every last memory of you
[BOM] I feel relieved
[DARA] I feel so much better
[BOM] Down to the bone I've erased every last memory of you

[CL] You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time

Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I'm fine living without you

download 2ne1 - hate you

L.I.F.E

... all about life ...

--- greato ---

thank you Mr. X

... before I forget this awesome idea ...

I was chat with my friend, bla bla bla....
Until I shared: "Yesterday, Mr. X was suck.."
Then, she tell me that she had upset to Mr. X too, but somehow Mr. X isn't bad-tempered one.. Well, yeaaah.. We know it, it isn't his type..
From those simple conversation, I want to change my mindset..
When I started to think negatively to someone, I should do these steps:

1. Move my ring (my new media)
2. Apologize
3. Start to think goodness that you make..

At least, when you came to my world, you ever made me smile ^^

* I did no.1

* sometimes I forget no.2

* no.3 is new for me

--- a better option ---

[tease] 2ne1 - hate you

... hate you ...
July 21, 2011 - 00:00 AM





--- why their new song always fit with me ---

dipdi daridu~~~

... f.o.c.u.s ...

Do you have difficulty to concentrate?

Try these few things:

1. don't connect to internet
2. don't close & touch your mobile-phone
3. don't ever think to send or get a message from anybody
4. it's all about you and your job
5. if you like music, just listening some songs, humming and a little dancing

I guarantee, you could focus and produce more..

--- trust me, it works ---

ireokeee..

... the best message ...

[July 14, 2011]

Although we can't meet this weekend, I have a great conversation..

Gomawooo ^^

This was my text:

"ya-ez, tak mampir rumah.. rumah msi yg dulu tow? dulu rumahe mana c?"

("okay, I'll come to your home.. your home is still there, right? so, where is your home?")

--- I imitated Sule's style ---

sistar 19 - ma boy

sistar 19 - ma boy

Let’s go, S-I-S-T-A-R, Sistar!
Baby stop breaking my heart
Your heard me? No more “next time”
I hope you got that boy

Hey girls, it’s gonna be alright
Hey boys, better make it right
Hey girls, we got ya back

You said you knew even if I said nothing
You know my heart somehow, right?
So I believed, I was patient, and I waited
You said you wouldn’t leave me by myself
You promised, pinky-swore
So why are you lying again?

* Is it that hard to say “I love you”?
It’s just one phrase
You keep changing, I’m becoming exhausted
As time passes I get more confused
The more I like you, the more I’m hurt
(Why you trippin’ boy?) Look at me

** Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy

I’m going crazy because of you
Why ya try ‘n play games with me?
Because of you everyday
I go up and down several times
Don’t let me down
I cry every night (no, no)
Stop breaking my heart

You don’t know how I feel, your eyes wander
What I got, what you lookin’ for?
Don’t look at other women
This is my last warning (oh no)
This gon’ be the last time

[repeat *]

[repeat **]

Woo boy, the more I like you
Woo boy, do you know how I feel?
The small whispers of my heart
The warm looks you give me sometimes
I just need one of those, I only want you
You still don’t know my heart

Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy

Ma boy

devil beside me

... here, there and everywhere ...

Even I said, "I don't care",

but somehow those scars still in there :p

I had a 'good radar',

my eyes, my ears, my friends..

And when my radar 'rings', I get my 'deg' and then feel 'horror' for a while.

That's my truly feeling, when I meet you in the wrong place and wrong time..

Why I could feel like that?

Because no one deserves to get 'those treatment' from you, there is no place for people who think of his/her own-self.

The second things, I just let you do what you like.. *sorry..

The last things is you never be the 'active' one.

--- kumad mode on ---

how can 'love' heal

... it's all about body, mind and spiritual ...

When our hearts are touched, various chemicals which responsible for health and reassurance are released into the body.

Research has revealed that when someone feels goodness, it could increase serotonin (hormone) levels, which will strengthen the immune-system. 

The interesting part is the serotonin levels will also increase when someone does goodness, which is equivalent for increasing immune-system. 

And even more awesome is if someone just saw the goodness done by others, he also experienced the results and benefits on the same physiological.

Chicken Soup for the Soul - Life Lessons

Important Things - Lesson No 1 ::  Let Love Lead the Way

--- I can only say: wooow ---

too much? (again)

... chain reaction ...

[when i was entering to office]

Lee :: Haluuu.. haluuu....

Another Staff :: Good morning..

Staff :: Did you cry before?

Lee :: [*eh]

Staff :: Your eyes look~~~

Lee :: I didn't.. [*huuuuuum, what did I do last night >,<]

...

Ahaaaaaa, these are some reasons ^^

[1] Yesterday, when it was a break time..

I was watching Grey's Anatomy S03E12 - Six Day (Part 2).

My tears dropped so fast, I couldn't handle it >_<

[2] Last night, I heard a chance to move on..

Then my heart was beating quickly, and I cried for a moment.

After a while, I heard the next news that I couldn't get those in this period, 

huuuuuft.. ToT

[3] I am on my new mission, changing my sleep time, xixixi..

When it was my bed time, I woke up several times yesterday, and I realized it, 

but then I fell asleep again. And this morning, I went to jog..

Too much?
I should listen Park Bom - Don't Cry >_<

--- the body never lies ---

my mistake..

Grey's Anatomy - S03E07

Where The Boys Are

Sometimes the problem's easily detected.

Most of the time, you need to go step by step.

First probing the surface, looking for any sign of trouble.

Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody

by just looking at them.

After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside

while their insides tell us a whole other story.

--------

But you don't abandon someone

just because there's baggage, you know?

Description of "best friend" is

someone who you want to talk to

--------

Not all wounds are superficial.

Most wounds run deeper than we can imagine.

You can't see them with the naked eye.

And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise.

The trick with any kind of wound or disease

is to dig down and find the real source of the injury.

And once you've found it,

try like hell to heal that sucker.

--- i got it ---

sincerely from my heart

... this letter accompany me all day today ...

oh baby you gotta know nothing in this world compares

the lovin' you give is so true

i guess all the stars on my side

so many nights have i prayed you'd be mine

and when you kiss, you light my way showing me how

it's so beautiful to believe in love, in you and me

GOMAWOOO.. you're the joy of my life, my reason to smile

i catch myself thinking why you are here, by my side

not knowing what you see in me

i guess love can clear out the clouds

carry you in the wind to my heart

cuz when you touch, you take away all of my fears

and the happiness you give to me, the same i'll do for you

SARANG HE.. sincerely from my heart, my reason to smile

cuz when you touch, you light my way, showing me how

it's so beautiful to believe in love, in you and me

GOMAWOOO.. you're the joy of my life, my reason to smile

---

[the craziest part]

[Now] I thought, I should hit the others..

Cars that stopped suddenly, cars that parked on the street,

pedicabs & others bikers that run beside me

* I was almost hit them >,<

And those would complete my day

[the best part of this day]
I'm stand for special one ^^

--- my reason to smile ---

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