all about lee

lee seung gi - because we're friends

2012-02-28T09:26:00.002+07:00

gumihooo....

lee seung gi - because we're friends

ulgo inneun ne eokkaereul gamssaryeoda
I was going to embrace your shoulders because you were crying
soneul naeryeonoko marasseo
But I just put my hand down
chingujanha chingujanha chingujanha nan
Because I'm a friend, a friend, a friend
eochapi neoege nan geunyang joheun chingujanha...
I'm just a good friend to you

neorul apeuge handaneun geu nyeoseogeul chajaga ttaerigo sipeotjiman
I want to go to that guy who is hurting you and punch him but
motajanha motajanha motajanha nan
I can't, I can't I can't
geurae bwatja neoui chingu isangeun nan andwaenikka
Anyway, I can't be anything more than just a friend

*
neoreul walkak ango ipsureul kkok matchugo
I want to suddenly hug you, kiss you on the lips
nollaneun neol dallaemyeo o neol
Comfort you, who would be surprised
haebokhage hal sarameun narago
And be the one who will make you happy
malhago sipjiman jumeolgeul kkwak jwijiman
I want to tell you these things but I only clench my fist
gyeolgugen mal motae nan o nan
Eventually, I can't say those words
bigeophage nae gaseume pinggyereul dae, chingujanha..
Like a coward, I make an excuse for my heart - we're just friends

ppeon han neoui geojeori nan museowoseo
Because I'm afraid of your obvious rejection
chingujocha mot hal geot gataseo
Because we might not be able to even be friends
saranghae neol saranghae neol saranghae neol nan
I love you, I love you, I love you
geu hanmadi neoege jeonhago sipeun mareul sumgyeo
I hide those words that I want to tell you

* repeat

haruman deo gidarimyeon nareul hoksi bwa jujin anheulkka
If I wait one more day, I wonder if you will look at me
uneun neoreul bol ttaemada
Every time I see you crying
gaseum teojil deut yeori bada ureo
I get so mad that my heart feels like it will burst and cry

naega apeun mankeu nae mamdo apeujiman
Although I hurt as much as you hurt
nunmureul samkiji man o nan
Although I swallow my tears
hangeoreumdo deoneun ne gyeote motga
I can't go a step closer to you
chinguraneun mallo nae mameul sogimyeonseo
I deceive my heart saying that we're just friends
babocheorom ulmyeonseo gyesok
And like a fool, I just cry inside
geoteuroman joheun saramcheorom malhae chingujanha
And on the outside, pretending to be a good person, I just say, we're friends

Download song :: lee seung gi - because we're friends

.

2012-02-28T01:01:00.000+07:00

just forget about it

--- day 1 ---

. .

2012-02-27T00:41:00.000+07:00

I just wonder,
when I can find my 'identical twin' ?

although she didn't know me well,
at least, she would do some act that I should do for her
and it makes me feel better

--- day 2 ---

. . .

2012-02-26T00:26:00.000+07:00

another songs,
I'll sing when in this condition

2NE1 - I Don't Care
CL & Minzy - Please Don't Go
2NE1 - GO Away

--- day 3 ---

. . . .

2012-02-25T00:13:00.000+07:00

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
'perfect' song
and doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

kelly clarkson - what doesn't kill you (stronger)

You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in colour
And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you

You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You try to break me, but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking about me
You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning
In the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

[2x]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

--- day 4 ---

. . . . .

2012-02-24T01:17:00.000+07:00

DO YOU?

--- day 5 ---

. . . . . .

2012-02-23T01:11:00.000+07:00

just a single prayer
and I got the answer next
# praise the Lord

pheeeeeew,
I hope it wasn't just a sign
I need more than that

I DO,
because I have lots of reasons..
DO you?

--- day 6 ---

. . . . . . .

2012-02-22T01:06:00.000+07:00

setting a reminder
if nothing happens within 7 days,
I give up

people never change
or I was the same as before

a risk gambling,
all in,
just prepare for the worst

--- day 7 ---

nothing

2012-02-21T17:20:00.000+07:00

... today was a day of mad for me ...

Start with the alarm clock that didn't ring
then woke up in a hurry at my departure hour
just washed face and brushed teeth quickly
I didn't eat, even drink too # woot

Everyone still slept,
and I couldn't say hello or even a bubye T__T
geeeeeez..

Go out with no preparation at all == ....

Right now,
I realized that all missions (for today) fall apart
I was going for nothing [mangaaaaaap..]
Aaaaaah, I don't want to responsible if I can't make it again
lalalalaaa~~~ # entertain myself

At least,
I have a lil story that made me smile and proud
When Simbok is at home,
If we go home, she would be happy to open the door for us, welcome warmly and ask about our day..
If we have to leave the house, she would open the door for us, make sure that nothing left behind, give some messages and advices, say goodbye, and see our departure..

Nothing can change this scene, and I am blessed with all of these
It would be our beautiful habit too

There's always room for family - Vin Diesel (Fast Five)

--- naaaaaah, looking for another 'nothing' ---

not recommended Déjà vu

2012-02-21T00:20:00.000+07:00

... as time goes by ...

Sometimes,
when you give up on someone,
it's not because you don't care anymore,
but because you realize they don't..

As time goes by, I can forget it..
But, every time I see it (accidental)
I still get my 'DEGH' moment
# burden that never goes away, sigh..

--- a-u-uq ---

you know everything ? (part 2)

2012-02-20T01:42:00.000+07:00

Hmmmmmm,
I really couldn't make it..

Was there any regret? Of course, baboo..
D-2, D-1, D-day, H-6, H-3, H-2, H-1, H-0, H++
I was thinking about what could I do there with them
# only my imagination (ngueneeez.com)

Now I can't mess with time, it's so risky..
and sacrifices must be made again
# over and over again

Anyway, I always be grateful to know them
One of them said that, she was afraid to be separated from the lovely people right now. While those thought has appeared many years ago in my mind, even to this day, this time.
At least, we had the same feeling, the same basic right now, then we could realize what is the 'important' thing..

# I took from from Oprah's statement
It's a honour for me..

# and this is mine
I'm not looking for a 'sorry' or 'thank',
'cause I'm looking for you..

--- my answers from my bottom of my heart ---

kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

2012-02-19T10:52:00.000+07:00

let's make a better mood
s.m.i.l.e

kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

jal jinaeneun deutan neoui hwanhan misoe
Whenever I see you living well and smiling brightly
naui maeum hanguseogi jakku apajyeo oneunde
A corner of my heart keeps hurting
bangaun deut utgo taeyeonhan cheok haebwado
I put on a happy smile and pretend to be calm
nado mollae tteollyeooneun moksoril neoneun aneunji
I know that you know that my voice is trembling

eotteoke jinaenneunji hago sipeotdeon mal manhanneunde
I want to ask you how you're doing
hanmadi geonneji motan chae doraseosseo
I want to tell you many things but nothing comes out and I turn back

[*]
da almyeonseo (da almyeonseo) jal almyeonseo (jal almyeonseo)
You know everything (know everything) You know it well (know it well)
eokjiuseum jitneun nareul da almyeonseo
You know when I put on a forced smile
mianhaeseo (mianhaeseo) dasi naegero dorawa
I am sorry (sorry) Come back to me again
malhaji motaneun nal almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

(As time goes by) baby you’re my boy
(As time goes by) baby you’re my girl
(You’re my love) you’re the only one

sigani galsurok jakku tteooreuneun geon
As time goes by it keeps coming back to me
jomdeo jalhaejuji motan naui jalmotdeulppuniya
How it was my fault for not treating you better
geuttaen wae geureoke babo gatasseonneunji
That time why was I being such a fool
honja mianhadan malman doe noeigo isseul ppuniya
I keep playing it in my mind saying I'm sorry

ijeuryeo noryeokhaedo jiul su eomneun geon neoui gieok
I try to forget but I couldn't erase the memory of you
cheoeumen itorok apeul jul mollanneunde
In the beginning I didn't know it would be this painful

[*]
da almyeonseo (da almyeonseo) jal almyeonseo (jal almyeonseo)
You know everything (know everything) You know it well (know it well)
eokjiuseum jitneun nareul da almyeonseo
You know when I put on a forced smile
mianhaeseo (mianhaeseo) dasi naegero dorawa
I am sorry (sorry) Come back to me again
malhaji motaneun nal almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

nae mami neoreul nochi motae an doeneun geol almyeonseodo
My heart can't let you go I know that
babo gateun nan ajikkkajido neoreul jabeuryeo hae
The foolish me still trying to catch you

da almyeonseo jal almyeonseo
I know everything I know it well
ijeul su eomneun geol nado da almyeonseo
I know that I can't forget you
nae aneseo neoreul beoril su eomneun geol
I can't get you out from inside of me
malhaji anhado da almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

(As time goes by) baby you’re my boy
(As time goes by) baby you’re my girl
(You’re my love) you’re the only one

Download song :: kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

tic toc tic toc

2012-02-16T23:28:00.000+07:00

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

--- waiting for the miracle ---

time oh time

2012-02-16T01:02:00.000+07:00

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I need a longer time

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm always working on it

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I even always in a hurry for it

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

However, in the end, I've run out of time

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

so, decisions were made

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm not chasing anymore

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

--- this is the last ---

you know everything ?

2012-02-15T02:07:00.000+07:00

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I played this song many times in 3 hours

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

only a song, this song

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

sometimes, I imagined KJK & YEH for a while

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

hmmmmmm, it's hot tonight,
melting.. melting.. melting..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

no matter what happens

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm in a good mood
and I love this song

--- hold on, hoold on, hooold on ---

happy V

2012-02-14T00:37:00.002+07:00

... loph ...

You can still steal 'it' from me
I don't mind, and I never mind
(don't want to miss a thing)

--- still the same ---

concern

2012-02-12T11:23:00.000+07:00

... quote ...

At the end of the day
it doesn't matter what people think.

The people that care about you, and people you care [about]
are the only ones you can really be concerned with and, to,
to have those relationships be right [is] enough work!

You don’t have to worry about other people's opinions,
cause everybody has one.

Laird Hamilton

--- aye aye Sir Hamiilton ---

little things

2012-02-12T10:21:00.000+07:00

Married or not you should read this...

The small details of your lives
are what really matter in a relationship.
It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank.
These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend
and do those little things for each other
that build intimacy.

--- (always) on my position ---

kan jong wook - don't cry

2012-02-08T23:46:00.000+07:00

another song,
that can make me strong

kan jong wook - don't cry

(Royal Family Ost.)

goyohaejin i sesangeseo all alone
I am in this world, all alone
eoreobuteun maeumeun
Cold-hearted
tto eoneusae deo gipge seumyeodeun
Without knowing, it has gone deep
nunmureun let it go
Tears let it go

buseojin gieok han jogagi on my mind
In broken memories, there is something, on my mind
gaseum sok jeo kkeut han saram keep inside
At end of my heart, there is someone, keep inside

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
I’ll carry you all through the night.
I’ll carry you all through the night.
eonjerado geureoke
Anytime, I will do so

eodirodo galsuga eomneun my heart
Not going anywhere, my heart
ipsul dwie sumeoseo
Hide behind your lips
jeomjeom deo kkaejyeoganeun yuriga doeeo
Slowly I am broken into pieces,
I don’t know if I can go on, jigeumcheoreom
I don’t know if I can go on, Just like now

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
Don’t cry
Don’t cry

buseojyeogan gieok jogakdeuri tto
In my broken memories,
naege soksagimyeo chatneun only one
You whisper to me, only one
nunbicheun tto ireoke break me down again.
Your eyes, break me down again
Don’t bring me down
Don’t bring me down

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
I’ll carry you all through the night.
I’ll carry you all through the night.
eonjerado geureoke
Anytime, I will do so

Download song :: kan jong wook - don't cry

first day

2012-02-05T22:18:00.002+07:00

... my boarding room ...

Before

(-___-!) empty space

After

+sweeping +mopping +cleaning + preparing

got pink there, lil'cushion n a blanket

(-______-!) and still empty too

I don't even have a mirror in here >___<
a fan for freshener
supply of water for drinking
my pillows and bolsters, their softness
aaaaaaaaargh....
kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang

Still the same room like before, but with different conditions..
and different missions too

Take it easy, lee..
The first day is always a tough day

(uhuk-uhuuuk..) I mean 10 tough days

--- ngenez.com ---

feel

2012-02-04T23:59:00.000+07:00

... forget ...

plus
don't forget
people felt it when you didn't do anything
[lee]

--- don't forget ---

message

2012-02-04T01:20:00.001+07:00

... if you are sensitive one ...

# someone refers to me

--- then, these messages are really for you ---
unfortunately, you aren't

another definition of music

2012-02-02T00:21:00.000+07:00

... music is my life ...

just Lee + listening music + with headset

then, feeling the beat

sorry to say,
I wouldn't care anything

--- escaping from life ---

same night

2012-02-01T00:47:00.000+07:00

... c.n.blue - teardrops in the rain ...

[singging]
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
Teardrops in the rain

--- raining night ---

last night

2012-01-30T09:39:00.001+07:00

I woke up in the middle of the night and it was raining..
# playing music
# and singging..

c.n.blue - teardrops in the rain

No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
Teardrops in the rain

I wish upon a star, I wonder where you are
I wish you're coming back to me again
And everything's the same like it used to be

I see the days go by and still I wonder why
I wonder why it has to be this way
Why can't I have you here just like it used to be

I don't know which way to choose
How can I find a way to go on ?
I don't know if I can go on without you oh

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
I shed teardrops in the rain

I wish that I could fly, I wonder what you say
I wish you're flying back to me again
Hope everything's the same like it used to be

I don't know which way to choose
How can I find a way to go on
I don't know if I can go on without you, without you

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
I shed teardrops in the rain

Oh... I shed teardrops in the rain
Oh... Hey... Teardrops in the rain

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees (no one), no one feels the pain (no one)
I shed teardrops in the rain

Teardrops in the rain
Teardrops in the rain
Teardrops in the rain...

# then sleeping again

blank

2012-01-27T23:56:00.000+07:00

... blank ...

let's being a "blank~ Ji Hyo" for a while
[reducing life of 10 years]

--- blank ---

the power of the brain

2012-01-26T12:51:00.000+07:00

... the brain is so gorgeous ...

Just imagine,
I only thought about these numbers 8-5-8-12 in one night

The result,
I had bad dream with these things
And I can't remember today's datetime, what should I do today,
or even tomorrow

A blank day in the morning,
8-5-8-12, Y U So Horror !?!?!?

At least, I discussed it with my Siz.. [lighter.. lighter.. lighter..]
Soon or later, I should discuss with Simbok too
I want to be productive, but I don't want to go crazy

--- the world's first problem is your brain ---

glek

2012-01-25T23:57:00.001+07:00

... 8 - 5 - 8 - 12 ...
# only my imagination
it would be the end of my world

... 8 - 5 - 8 - 12 ...
# and if it is real
it still the end of my world

... 8 - 5 - 8 - 12 ...
I don't have preparation on this part,
just by looking at the numbers it just makes me 'galau'

anyway, decide to not decide in an option too

let me calculate again
8 - 5 - 8 - 12
4 - 9 - 3 - 4 - 4
and still looks horror T______T

--- kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang ---

new motto

2012-01-24T22:18:00.001+07:00

... change change change ...
[singging Hyuna - Change]

old motto - from Tengil
Everyday is "holiday"

new motto - from an ads on a bus
Everyday is "playday"

--- with some code ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

Running Man

2012-01-22T23:08:00.002+07:00

... great spirit ...

From the first day in Spore, I always thought about Running Man..
It would be a great, if Running Man team play in Spore
* Changi Airport is so large or using MRT would be fun to

And the second day, [destiny] I found him

The Prince [blush]

Why I like Running Man so much ?
[1] They are K-pop Idols, and I love Korean ^^
[2] Those people could bring happiness to me [my secret time],
at least I get their spirit everyday, even in Spore, hahahaaa..
[3] They are so unique, I could learn ethic-code in social life.
Dunno, they are doing some act or not, but it's definetely REAL..
[4] Maybe, I'm 'jealous' with them [a-u-uuuq....]
# singging - hope is a dream that never sleeps ~~~

MY THOUGHTS == ALL ABOUT RM

Hide & Seek or Cat & Mouse
Some newbies doing that thing in Spore? It would be great scenario..
Great scenario of our lost, again n again [LoL]
Great scenario for burning calories, then 'burning' our money, healthy life + empty pocket = healthy gembel [don't try this]
And believe me, it would be really great, xixixi..

Drinking hot tea in a time
You could try this experiment, and don't blame me
Cool outside, hot inside [glodhak.. glodhak.. glodhak..]

Splashing chopstick
Forehead? Ummmmmm, I don't want to get red in there [too risky]
So, I did it on my thight [!Not-Action-Talk-Only]

[paper - scissors - stone] Mike (left) - Mine (right)

[0] I got a long one, I did it to myself, with all of my heart
[1-3] And 3 red lines from Mike [hikz, my fortune-girl went to date]
[4] I do with 200% of my power to Mike [devil]
Similiar, but NOT :p

Breaking chopstick with your fingers
There is only 1 rule: "breaking chopstick or 'breaking' your fingers"
And I was 'breaking' mine, my finger T___T

[needed 2 days or more for recovering]

Remember this, I have no regret at all
I will always do some crazy things, it is WORTH ^^

--- seum dwa ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

our 'OST' song

2012-01-18T23:48:00.007+07:00

... victoria, victoriaaa ...

this was our 'OST' song when we played in Spore

C.N Blue - I'm a Loner

The Background Story
On the first day, we needed a place to stay at night. We didn't sure to stay at hotel, so we decided to search another place..
Our Position was from V Hotel. Hmmmmmm, where was this place exactly?
About somewhere in Lavender St., and.. dunno.... [dhueeenk]

Our Target
[1] China Town :: It was impossible to go there again, because we didn't know where the place of residence owners and it was far from us.
[2] Little India :: It wasn't safe to live in here [sound of the wind]
[3] Kampong Bugis :: Tadaaaaaa, the closest place with our position ^^

Please, take a look at this map

click and zoom me

'DREAM' LEGEND :p

Blue Zone :: Overview map that we had [read: that we had].
Green Line :: We always thought that our hotel was V hotels, V = Victoria hotel in area marked A. All we needed to do was tracing the path of VICTORIA Street.

And this was the beginning of our adventure,
lost since the beginning..

[glodhak.. glodhak.. glodhaaak....]

[singging] look at the sky ~~~

'SILLY' LEGEND & THE REAL ONE

Red Zone :: Our position, not in the map that we had brought [read: we weren't in our map, and this was the most ridiculous and funny].
'ngak.. ngaak.. ngaaak....' [voice crow]
Red Square :: V Hotel, Lavender St.
Purple Line :: Kampong Bugis, next destination, but we never got there T___T
Black Spots :: That was our footstep, so galau [bitter.. bitter.. bitter....]
Black Circle :: Somewhere we called Vietnam frontier, we thought we became targets of Vietnam's snipers
'ngak.. ngaak.. ngaaak....' [voice crow]

[singging] look at the star ~~~ [eh...]

How about my GPS ?
You know what, we love "Dora the Explorer", all we needed was a MAP..
*Dora can't use GPS, poor Dora >_<

The best experience
We got tired, upset, hungry, and LOST. But we could JOKE & LAUGH along our way.
No matter what happen, I was grateful to share this experience with the people I love, my Chingu.
And that's what I'm looking for exactly..

If I have question: Would you feel it again ?
Jebaaaaaal, better not to get lost, but can joke & laugh merrily, hahahaaa..
I don't want to listen to the voice crows again

Back to the Story
When Yonghwa sing :: Oetoriya, oetoriya, dara diri dara du ~~~
we sing :: Victoria, Victoriaaa, dara diri dara du ~~~

--- one in a million chance ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

'scene'

2012-01-17T22:59:00.003+07:00

... momento is momento ...

Before I forget, I wrote it ^^
* something impossible
I got great experiences with my Chingu, actually it was a similar 'scene'. Deja vu, those were deja vu, and I like this deja vu very much.. And I'll waiting my next 'scene', xixixi

[1] BC
I remember, it was the last time (at that time) I could see BC, because BC had to go home in the morning..
During the early morning, we awoke from our sleep. Just sat on the stairs, waiting for the morning sun. Then I got that 'scene'. Probably, because we were still sleepy or BC had the same feeling with me, didn't want to part.

[2] Cho
Cho is different.. Cho likes to be spoiled, and childishness is funny for me. So, we do the 'scene', when Cho wants it. As much as Cho likes, anywhere and anytime (LoL).

[3] My J~
At the very very unpredictable time. It was a blink 'scene', but I still got it.. xixixi....

Trust me, it's all just a coincidence.
Scene that only happens when we are in the sleepy mode

--- great coincidence ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

languages of the world

2012-01-16T13:20:00.003+07:00

... kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang ...

Some languages should you prepare before you go to Spore

China Language: majority in there
English Language: international language
Malay Language: optional
Body Language: our final choice :p

And you will learn new language for free:
.. kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang # pro-gamers
After you feel miss-comm, you could try that one.. I believe, you still get miss-com, at least you can express your feeling [ekekekekekekek..]

When Chinese speak English, it's quite a mess.. T______T
They didn't say: "where do you go ?", but they said: "go where.. go where..",
while I heard: "go away.. go away.." O______o [krik krik krik]
until they said: "cai na li.."
.. kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang [bitter bitter bitter]

These cases are better than before..
When you meet with a group of Korean,
just say: "I love Korean.." or "Sarangheooo.."
And when you meet with a group of Japanese,
just sing: "Hateshinaiii.." plus lil' bounce too # ost pocari sweat
* between despair and madness is thin at all

And that's the way we survive there, we are gembelerz ^^

--- need to adapt for surviving ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

the gembelers

2012-01-15T12:52:00.005+07:00

... the actors ...

Let me introduce them, those who dare to 'nggembel' in a new place ^^
[left to right]

Ing Yen
Hernawan Lee
Michael Agusta
Michelle Amalia (me)
Andrew Chandra

--- gembelerz in Spore ---

[Spore 20120106-11]

every single tear that dropped was WORTH

2012-01-12T09:00:00.003+07:00

Just imagine,
hear things that should not be heard
see things that should not be seen
I hope, it was my "blind side"
* but, it wasn't..

Fortunately, I brought glasses and earphones
better to close eyes & ears
Unfortunately, the feeling still not be fooled..
* easy but hard

Like I said before,
every single tear that dropped was WORTH

And I dropped my last tear in Singapore
when I saw Song of the Sea
(for me) It was really worth for a closing

So, I'll promise to forget the bad things that have happened
and my next posting would be nice one ^^

[Spore 20120106-11]

K & JH

2011-12-29T21:12:00.000+07:00

... lil' dialogue between K & Ji Hoon ...

JH: Are you okay now?
K: What?
JH: Acting like you don't know. Don't you know you have been weird lately?
K: I have, haven't I?
K: Like you said, I think I was depressed.
K: All the suffering past, and only good things seem to happen.
K: All of it was uncomfortable. A person can feel that way.
K: I am okay now.
JH: Really? That's good to hear.
K: Did you worry? I am sorry..
JH: Do you know, why am I so disappointed.
K: About what?
JH: You suffered by yourself, you took care of it yourself.
JH: I didn't do anything. Even I don't know what caused the suffering.
JH: But, it's good to hear that..

--- sometimes in JH's position is pathetic ---

smiling

2011-12-27T11:24:00.000+07:00

... haha ...

Why are you smiling like that?
soooooo tengiiil..
even in my dream

Anyway, like I said, I like just the way you are ^^

--- thank you for brightening my morning ---

problems

2011-12-27T01:04:00.000+07:00

... seven pounds ...

Emily: Do you ever think about DEATH?
Ben: .. sometimes
...
# after she fell asleep
...
Ben: Sorry.. Actually, I think about IT everyday..

I didn't watch it completely,
so I didn't know what exactly his burden
But, why someone could talk like that easily?

--- they really have PROBLEMS ---

....

2011-12-22T23:00:00.000+07:00

... woot ...

I was surprised,
I've written all this posts by myself

What actually happened to me in this December ???

I'm moody and too sensitive,
I should learn to control it again

--- wew ---

my last december

2011-12-22T19:09:00.000+07:00

[I was writing this post while on my way to home]

This has been a year or more
I was trying to stay as long as I could,
with all sorts of reason for completing my temporary 'alibi'
I've done everything, so I could be there..

But, nothing has changed,
nothing was holding me back..
And I've run out of reasonable
So, I've made my decision

I'm stepping forward, without looking back
Hope you enjoy your 'room', and let me fix mine ^^

[funny incident]
I wrote message "c u next year", and immediately removed it. Then wrote it again, and removed it again.. It happened many times, and finally I didn't send the message. I can't guarantee what I say, I don't want to expect more.. (vise versa)

--- goodbye, baby goodbye ---

A Letter to My Heart

2011-12-21T22:30:00.000+07:00

Dear My Heart,

Sorry to say,
I'm sorry if I did too much to you..
I promised, this would be the last at this year
* dunno about next one :p

I knew that I don't like coffee very much,
but I still took that risks >_<
Because of some reasons, I've planned to not sleep tonight,
I hope I could stay awake

"save this night, save my holiday.."

So, please..
Please, don't get too hot or too cold..
And don't dag-dig-dug too hard
I am afraid if it should happen again
* ready or not, I'm dealing with the worst risks

--- jebaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal ---

What Love is All About

2011-12-20T10:00:00.000+07:00

... Victoria - What Love is All About ...

Some interesting points (jackpot for me):

we genuinely care about the people in our lives
unsolicited advice actually drives a wedge in relationships
what people need is to know that they are loved unconditionally
if you find that you are correcting or "teaching" someone in every conversation, you probably need to adjust your approach
the truth is we've all been guilty of trying to fix, teach or correct someone else
give people room to grow because empowering others is what love is all about

Above all, love each other deeply,
because love covers over a multitude of sins

(1 Peter 4:8, NIV)

--- evaluate.. evaluate.. evaluate.. ---

hello Mr. Rude..

2011-12-18T00:21:00.000+07:00

... hmmmmmmph ...

Somehow, Saturday always makes me stress, just because of 1 person
[applause for yooo] it's difficult to handle you

Side Story
I remembered, Simbok told me about Joel..
Joel went for shopping and met an unfriendly cashier, lots of buyer didn't get good services because of the cashier. She worked with 'way face', without a single smile, some buyers said that she was rude..
Joel started to think, "Why she did like that? Maybe, she is in trouble right now..".

And he started to talk to her: "Do you have any problems right now?".
Cashier: #shocked "Actually, I got a message, my child had an accident this morning, and I'm still waiting about his news. I'm worried about him.."
...

they have PROBLEMS

How about me?
I start my Saturday with smile, then I meet him, and he ruins my weekend, ouch..
HE IS RUDE.. And he never realize that he always rude, oo-em-ji..
[woot] His name is like his behavior, RUDE, doooh..
[gedhek.. gedhek.. gedhek....]

So, what is the problems?
RUDE's problems are himself..
Lee's problem is him..

Hooaaaaaah!!!!
I'm so stupid, I unconciously 'play' with him >___<

Let's find another 'toys'..
Sorry, all I can do is helping myself

help him == 'play' with him == I get stress

like attracts like

2011-12-15T23:46:00.001+07:00

... law of attraction ...

A few days ago, I started to think, "why I don't sneeze, while right now is rainy season..". That's so weird, because Simbok got it over and over again, but I didn't. Of course, it is a bless, I was fine, but I still felt weirdo..
So, unconciously, I had a thought: "when I would sneeze, when I would sneeze, when I would sneeze.."

Yesterday, I was cleaning my room, and my concern was "why those stack of papers/modules/books are too much". I didn't want to keep it, not useful, and selling them was the best option. Remember, they were too much, there were too heavy too, complicated.. 3 boxes full of papers, how much money that I spent for my college, while I didn't read them all, ckckckckck..

Somehow, my jun2 posted status in FB, he needed papers to sell, he want to save the money for mudik
# ahaaa..
I contacted him, and he accepted it. I prepared & packaged them to boxes, and clean my room was a MUST.
Ooo.. ooow.... I saw lots of dust there
# ahaaa..
And I still cleaned my room, no other option >___<

Then, I got my first sneeze
# ahaaa.. (feeling not good)
second, third, fourth, .... I got sneeze all night long
what a sneeze, eh, what a stupid thought

like attracts like

I started to positive thinking
"I get a car.. I get a car.. I get a car.."
# too positive, hahahaaa..

"I'm rich.. I'm rich.. I'm rich.."
# too naive, sigh..

"I'm healthy.. I'm healthy.. I'm healthy.."
# and it is great ^^

--- Simbok: healthy is a MUST ---

A Greater Treasure than a Friend

2011-12-15T20:32:00.000+07:00

A Greater Treasure than a Friend

Savannah Outen

So far away
How did I lose my way
Even though we're worlds apart, you were always in my heart everyday

Travel far and wide
Fly across the blue moon in the sky
Sail through the clouds to places you have never been
You could wish a thousand times
Find the gold that pirates left behind
But you'll never find a greater treasure than a friend

Let's not pretend
That pixie dust could end
Every single tear that falls
Any problem big or small
You can mend

You can soar to Neverland
Fly right through the water fall and dance
See the colors change before your eyes
And let them believe

Float above the mountain top
Watch the fireflies light up the night
There is one everywhere you turn
so please believe

Cause I believe in you
You're the magic in my life
That has stones that sparkles bright
through and through

Travel far and wide
Fly across the blue moon in the sky
Sail through the clouds to places you have never been
You could wish a thousand times
Find the gold that pirates left behind
But you'll never find a greater treasure than a friend

Don't want the pain of losing you, again
I can tell you in the end
You won't find
A Greater Treasure Than A Friend....

December == Holidays

2011-12-14T01:31:00.001+07:00

... somehow, I love Joel & Victoria ...

* actually, we love them..

Victoria said,
Maybe the holidays don't bring back good memories for you. Maybe you've been hurt, denied or rejected by someone. Maybe you are working through some pain right now. But remember, Jesus gave us an example of mercy, and He has equipped us by His grace to overcome. It's easy to take offense. It's easy to hold on to the hurt and pain of the past. But the best way to move forward is to give all that pain to God and let Him heal you. Receive His grace so that you can show mercy this holiday season and every day of the year!

I would sing this song (again)..

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

--- ring ding ding ding ding, ring ding ding ---

I got my answer

2011-12-12T23:55:00.001+07:00

... thank you Victoria ...

A Change Will Do Your Relationships Good

so, how do I contribute?

--- thinking, thinking, thinking ---

you

2011-12-12T18:22:00.001+07:00

wanted to feel angry
just because of what I've read
just because of what I've heard
just because of what I've seen

but I can't do anything

because that's not my right
because that's not me who suffer
because that's not me..

I know it's only temporary,
because it often happens..
* bad habit

but, isn't it too much?
or I less sensitive

You've made me regret for the things that I can't do

change

2011-12-12T12:40:00.000+07:00

... nggodho ...

I remember what Simbok said,
"you can't change people, so you have to change yourself"

It sounds unfair, right?
And that's what I do right now,
changing myself..

"jangan nggodho.. jangan nggodho.. jangan nggodho.."
* 'nggodho' in any form

I hope, I could enjoy this new style....

--- what a complex life ---

i'm so black

2011-12-10T16:44:00.001+07:00

... black black black ...

hohohooo, I don't like this choice
never like being the 'black' one

so, thank you for all people
that can drag me to those position (again and again)
you're very kind..

and sorry if I can control devil inside me
my bad.. my bad.. my bad....

but don't worry, I don't so close to people on that mode
* I'm afraid if I can 'bite' everyone

Anyway, I create new playlist about this

njarag playlist

--- my bad ---

Dec 09

2011-12-09T00:01:00.000+07:00

... Dec 09 ...

Part 1
I walked quietly to her room
I couldn't see anything, it was too dark..
Back to my room, and I took a mobile-phone

Part 2
I walked quietly to her room (again)
Still couldn't see anything, and tried to get light from mobile-phone
Saw her exact position, she was sleep there..

Then I came to hug and kiss Simbok
And I said: "Happy Birthday, mbok.."
I was the first gift on her birthday, she got my lovely hug & kiss

Ummmmmm, I think, I forgot to say something..
Tomorrow, I would say: "I love you"

And we got company too
Yesterday, Dec 08 was tengil's birthday
Hahahaaa, this all is not just a coincidence
*we believed like that ^^

--- Happy Bday ---
I love You

oups..

2011-12-06T21:02:00.000+07:00

... oups ...

--- oups ---

just a simple plan

2011-12-05T23:49:00.001+07:00

Last night,
I decided to become a 'jerk' for a while
# dunno why it came out just like that
probably, because I got 'bullet' from you

At least, I want to do what I want
I don't care about other people
Sometimes, breaking some rules could make you happy..
And I'm ready for the risks

This morning,
I woke up, then saw Simbok & Kopo were preparing for Christmas tree
# aaah, this December should be a great month
Suddenly, I canceled my last plan

I just sat there..
# resetting my brain
I didn't do anything..
# a song was played in my brain

# singging
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah....

t-ara

2011-12-04T23:22:00.001+07:00

... my new desktop ...

Mrs. Killer Instinct, Mrs. Dudul aka Chocho (LoL), and Mrs. Cute ^^
xixixi..

--- they really breaking my heart ---

domino effect

2011-12-03T23:57:00.000+07:00

... jedheeeeeer ...

song of this week

like being hit by the bullet

I never touch this playlist: 'korea - mellow'
# except in certain circumstances

Today, I listened to them all day..
# because, this is the right time

And as usual, feel sorry for my eyes
I got some bad cases
Bad domino effect in my early December, sigh

--- so, I don't care ---

karma

2011-12-02T22:59:00.000+07:00

... karma ...

It's better to use (word) 'karma' than 'sin',
looks simpler, smaller, and lighter for human,
but actually.. I don't think so....

sickness, sore, painful, hardship, misery, trouble

Simbok said: "Our Sabian said, the sick people is a sinner.."
I was imagine, I'm a sick one, I was there and heard him, and I have a BIG sin..
It's not like 'every people is sinful', but I got SICK because of MY SIN
What did I do before ???

She continued: "For the payoff of sin is death"
I hold my breath, hid my tear for a second..

I'm really sad.. It's too terrific..
Because we discussed about my relatives >___<
"For the payoff of sin is death", huuuuuuft T___T

Every single day, I should responsible for that,
what I've did and what I've didn't..
Seems not fair because I feel its effects
*somehow, I took part in their sin, maybe I was a passive-one..
So, let's start to responsible in present & future

Yesterday, I saw some 'Dementors' on the sky

And I got 'their' message

once upon a time

2011-11-26T22:28:00.000+07:00

... bouncing bouncing bouncing ...

"Why did you look happy, mel ?"

Because I can shared my case well (without interruption),
and someone was listening it well too
Then my case solved smoothly ^^

Hmmmmmm,
I should learn how to listen first and keep my mouth (talk-less)
That's nice and it looks more wise

In other side,
I usually 'talking' too much because I care

So, which one is better?
Believe me, it depends on you

--- be wise ---

!=

2011-11-25T23:23:00.000+07:00

... hmmmmmmmmm ...

lee,
don't expect too much to others
you don't worth for waiting too long
they never do what you 'normally' do

they are not the same as you

--- how many times I say this statement ---

20112011 [2]

2011-11-24T21:05:00.000+07:00

... 20112011 ...

Congraaatz for Jane & Bobby too

Happy Wedding for both of you, guys ^^

... 20112011 ...

20112011

2011-11-24T17:21:00.001+07:00

... 20112011 ...

Congraaatz for Michael & Christine
my lophly bro & ce tengil

and welcome to our CLAN, xixixixixi..

What happened to this world!?!?!?
I didn't cry when we were meeting or parting yesterday
Probably, because this was a happy moment
OR
I knew that tomorrow they will come here, ekekekekek..
Time goes sooo fast

Aaaaaah, I tell you something in this family..
Someday, when a child comes home to his father (because of distance and time apart)
You will see great moment there,
father would come & hug his child first, and tap child's shoulder
We called it love ^^

My father looks like Arnold Schwarzenegger,
with a Hello Kitty heart..

--- december.. december.. december.. ---

Nov 23

2011-11-23T23:57:00.003+07:00

... Thank God ...

The weirdest thing happened today is when I started to do my 'annual ritual'..
(there was no 5 minutes)
(suddenly): Am I really have a birthday today ?
. . . . . . . .
I stopped my ritual for a moment, then I checked calendar on my mobile
"November 23, 00:04 AM"
. . . . . . . .
(thinking): hahahaaa, it's so ridiculous
And I continued my ritual..

In the middle of my conversation,
I remembered that Cah Bagus reminded me of my birthday yesterday
That is my first SMILE on my 25th :)
thank you boy, you still stole mine :*

Woaaaaaah,
I got interesting experiences in this year..
And I am grateful for all of that,
wisdom, health, famz, lophly friends, dream jobs,
all good things that made me happy,
and also all bad things that made me sad or cry

For this year, I didn't ask to much, I only ask a think,
let me learn to fall in love with God..

--- my target is HIS pleasure ---

theme:: fox rain

2011-11-19T12:50:00.001+07:00

... le me enjoy this journey ...

'fox rain' would be nice theme
while I love to say: "nomu nomu nomu chuwaa.."
#preparing gumiho soundtrack
and Mr Rain will accompany on my trip (romantic trip, xoxoxo)

God Bless us
I hope this mission goes well

--- D-day ---

dag dig dug.. dag dig dug....

2011-11-18T22:15:00.001+07:00

... FINALLY ...

hwaaaaaaaaaaaah, 30 days have passed
mayday, mayday, tomorrow is the D-Day

~~~ nomu nomu nomu nomu nomu nomu chuwaa ~~~

Tonight I definitely can't sleep,
imagine this, imagine that
pretend like this, pretend like that

Anyway,
I'm comiiiiiiiiin....

--- day 1 ---

it's packing time :p

2011-11-17T22:58:00.000+07:00

... this is a fun story about this whole weekend ...

When Simbok said: "it's packing time.."
It means: "it's a watching time.."
Watching her packing her stuff, packing dad stuff, packing my stuff (LoL), packing my sis too
maybe she is too galau or maybe this is her hobby
* both are true :p

Meanwhile..
Daddy: # still lazed
Me: # I bothered her
My sis: # just giggle

And after that time, these were what we do..
Daddy: # still lazed
Me: I'll check my stuff that have been packed # re-check & re-select
(it's all about my 'style')
My Sis: I'll package my own stuff
(it's all about her 'taste')

--- day 2 ---

not this month..

2011-11-16T23:16:00.000+07:00

... I miss that place ...

Hmmmmmm,
I failed to get a permission to go to Bali this month..
I guessed this was my reckless decision

Just a planning without some preparations
and the result is NULL

Okay, that's not a big problem right now..
I'll re-arrange this plan for the next month
I hope it would be a YES

--- day 3 ---

fall in love with HIM

2011-11-15T23:59:00.001+07:00

... The Message said ...

"Bring your life (everyday), sleeping, eating, going to work, and walking, and place it for God as a worship."

Side Story
When I first fell in love with my wife, I thought about her constantly: when having breakfast, in a vehicle to school, attending college, waiting queues in the market, filling stations; I can't stop thinking about this woman! I often talk to myself about her and think about everything that I like about her. This is what helped me feel close to Kay even though we live several hundred miles apart and school to different high school. By constantly thinking about her, I live in her love..

This is the true meaning of worship, fall in love with HIM..
I start to do what HE likes and start to fall in love with HIM. So when people are not reliable anymore, I still have my sweetheart ^^
If one day you feel that I was changed, you already know the answer..

--- day 4 ---

not a hoy-hoy, but a hosh-hosh..

2011-11-14T23:21:00.000+07:00

... on my way ...

# this week only or maybe next week too
not applying for jobs
not accepting some jobs
not 'playing' ToT
finishing my current projects

i'm in a rush
# hosh.. hosh.. hosh....

--- day 5 ---

codecademy

2011-11-13T23:25:00.000+07:00

... le me try, le me exercise, le me type some code ...

I had a job to review some webs, then make prototype of them.
I'm still newbie in this area, so I'm very excited on it

codecademy.com
Codecademy is the easiest way to learn how to code. It's interactive, fun, and you can do it with your friends..

Agree, I'm start to love Javascript in here..
Lots of courses there, and it looks like a puzzle in my brain, where first I didn't have basic in this area, and now I'm starting to get their logic, esp in JS and his 'famz'..

Beside of that, I'm still thinking: how to make a prototype like codecademy
#curious.. curious.. curious....

--- day 6 ---

7 6 5 4 3 2 1

2011-11-12T23:38:00.003+07:00

... nomu nomu nomu chua ...

7
6
5
4
3
2
1

--- day 7 ---

how come..

2011-11-11T23:17:00.000+07:00

... horror.com ...

'horror.com' is when you take a nap (woot) over at 7 pm..

And after you wake up, your first statement is "doooh"

The next one is "what should I do next.."

And the other thing is ".. while tomorrow morning I must go to office"

I still can't follow her healthy lifestyle: "bo2x early sing anteng.."
TT______TT

--- day 8 ---

don't hesitate

2011-11-10T21:14:00.000+07:00

... John 12:25 ...

Bible in Basic English
He who is in love with life will have it taken from him; and he who has no care for his life in this world will keep it for ever and ever.

Alkitab
Barangsiapa mencintai nyawanya, ia akan kehilangan nyawanya, tetapi barangsiapa tidak mencintai nyawanya di dunia ini, ia akan memeliharanya untuk hidup yang kekal.

read at a glance
# eh.. wait a minute....

read two times
# what was that? (thinking)

read three times
# I got an enlightenment, and it was a great relief..

--- day 9 ---

'kesambet'

2011-11-09T10:02:00.001+07:00

... what is happening in this world ...

someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there.... someone is 'kesambet' here.... someone is 'kesambet' there....

Am I 'kesambet'?

Why not!!!! xixixixixi..

--- day 10 ---

awkward moments

2011-11-08T22:57:00.003+07:00

... some awkward moments of this day ...

When I suddenly woke up early and still remember that my work hasn't been completed, and even in my dream I still do that O___o

When I wanted to vomit in the morning because of stupid code x______x

When I realized that previous moment had ruined my day, and made me temperamental this day

When I didn't know about anything, I really don't know about it, but I still have to do, try to figure it out, and after it happen, all I can say is: "what was that?"

When I had a bad temper today, then I realized that was my folly, and I could smile on it

When I met someone who is important in the parking lot
# lucky me, I didn't get a heart attack, even I was ashamed to look at her face directly

When I wanted to vomit (again) at night because of crazy things

When I decided to stay up again tonight, and do not know what will happen later..
hahahaaa....

--- day 11 ---

sms of the week

2011-11-07T11:05:00.000+07:00

... who's that tengill ...

even though Monday is the beginning of the week,
I decided sms of the week right now :p

"eh ce, ini hari Senin ya? ngantor donk, ekekekek.."
TGIM

--- day 12 ---

day of mourning

2011-11-06T19:01:00.000+07:00

... bubye 'Clark Kent' ...

TT___TT

thank you for accompanying us for 1.5 years

our 'Clark Kent'

this the reason why he called Clark Kent
because he sleeps like a superman

Why should occur on day 13 ?
better skip this day
All we can do is wake up, sleep, wake up, sleep again..
a Sad Day

--- day 13 ---

Hello Mr. Nice Guy

2011-11-05T21:34:00.000+07:00

... nice to meet you ...

Today,
I met Mr. Nice Guy (again)
What a beautiful coincidental (blush)

As usual, I got his charm..
He's still handsome and friendly like before

I thought, I had good childhood's memory with him
# thinking
Hmmmmmm, I can't remember it

Or maybe I'm just his secret admirer, xixixi..

--- day 14 ---

we hate the haters

2011-11-04T23:28:00.000+07:00

... simplicity ...

I didn't get it

I don't get it

So, I don't care

Except, those about me or my famz

Never 'touch' them
or you'll dealing with US

We hate the haters

--- day 15 ---

day 14?

2011-11-03T23:46:00.002+07:00

... 14? I think I miscounted ...

# This was my post for today..
Already half-way..
15 days was not a long time,
and 15 days was not a short time too

There is still half-way again, HWAITIIIIING!!!!

# After re-count again
Dhunk dhueeeeeer, I miscounted..
TT__________TT

Whereas, today I was celebrating with a meal at Takigawa
*even showed off too.. huhuhuuu >___<

Fusion Sushi Platter

--- day 16 ---

'temporary assignment'

2011-11-02T22:05:00.000+07:00

... this world is not my home ...

Things that we see today, today is still there, and gone tomorrow.

But the things that we can't see now will last forever..

Because we didn't pay attention to the 'visible', but the 'invisible',

because visible is temporary, whereas the invisible is eternal..

--- day 15 ---

new plan

2011-11-01T23:24:00.001+07:00

... Grey's Anatomy - S03E19 ...

The thing about plans is, they don't take into account
the unexpected.
So when we're thrown a curveball
whether it's in the O.R.
Or in life...

We have to improvise.

---
I'm a guy without a foot.
What do I do now?

You move forward, you...
You follow the plan, and you try
and keep your other foot.

My other foot..
---

Of course, some of us are better at it than others.
Some of us just have to move on to plan B..
and make the best of it.

And sometimes..
What we want is exactly what we need.

But sometimes..
is a new plan.

--- day 16 ---

on a rush

2011-10-31T22:31:00.001+07:00

... Monday & Thursday ...

I found that I am quite sensitive on those day..
I just don't want to leave here, but I need to go there

or maybe

I always rushed on those day,
others rush me,
while I'm trying to make myself as relaxed as possible

I hate parting..

--- day 17 ---

Lee is God's lover

2011-10-30T22:54:00.001+07:00

... I believe that God loves me so much ...

Yesterday, I got an 'answer' ^^
And discussed it with simbok was a great relief
I learned new things..

After asking and waiting long enough,
doing some 'work',
hunting small things,
making new relationships with new people

Now is the right time, reaping time, xixixixixi..

Therefore, I should be responsible for this chance
New challenges for long periods, so I don't have to worry anymore
Just think about my statement too, "everyday is a holiday",
it would make me calm everyday..

Kyaaaaaaaaa, I am God's lover..

--- day 18 ---

simple question

2011-10-29T23:59:00.000+07:00

... just a single question ...

I have to answer this question many times in this week
" Do you eat 'well' ? "
#jleeeeeeeeeb

Sorry, i don't tell the truth this time

--- day 19 ---

never hate us

2011-10-28T23:29:00.002+07:00

... nice pic & desc ...

--- day 20 ---

she is an 'artist'

2011-10-27T23:19:00.001+07:00

... finally I got her number ...

Today is her birthday, but she isn't here
So, I need her number, the right one

Anyway, she still an 'artist' for me
while I was a bad fan for not following her
*glodhak.. glodhak.. glodhak....

I called this day as a Mission Impossible
*dunno the exactly reason

Mission Number 1 - getting her number
As a stalker, oups.. I didn't get it. So, I asked directly to her secretary, Bahamud (akakakakak). This mission almost failed because of her carelessness.
Great job, boy.. [enemy spotted]

Mission Number 2 - waiting
Just waiting till 00:00. This is the 'important' part ^^
Of course, I didn't checking the difference time, because she was born in here

Mission Number 3 - phon2 time
1st call : (phone 1)
.... .... ....

2nd call : (phone 1)
.... .... ....
xyyyzzzzzz zzzxxxyyyyy xyyyzzzzzz zzzxxxyyyyy [local dialogue]
the number you call is not active [other CS] # eeeeeeeeeeeh....

3rd call : (phone 2)
.... .... ....
[tuuut.. tuuuuuut..] # hoy hoooy....
(artist) : Hallo..
(me) # isn't a "weeei", so this is her right number
(me) # looks like she's ngebo-ing
(me) : Dah bobox ? # i like this stupid question
(artist) : Hallo.... Hallo....
(me) : Gag denger pa ? # hmmmmmm, maybe it is delay..
(artist) : Hallo.... Hallo.... Hallo....
(me) : Holla-hallo wae.. Tak-phon2 ulang.. # dudul, dedel, dodol everytime
(me) : # cekleeek..

4th call : (phone 2)
.... .... ....
[tuuut.. tuuuuuut..]
(artist) : Hallo..
(me) : Dah bobox ?
(artist) : udaaah.. sini pagi oq
(me) : Ya'ez lanjut bobox ae, tak phon2 besok # melas.com
(me) : Happy Birthday

It's not perfect, but successful..
chu ~~

--- day 21 ---

oxygen

2011-10-26T23:05:00.000+07:00

... a kind of oxygen for me ...

--- day 22 ---

c.l.o.s.e

2011-10-25T23:26:00.002+07:00

... blush ...

while I said:
close your eyes, and close to me

--- day 23 ---

little mermaid

2011-10-24T11:33:00.003+07:00

... bleb bleb bleb ...

and then the little mermaid turned into bubbles and disappeared

anyway, I'm ready for the bubbles

--- day 24 ---

there's gonna be one less lonely girl

2011-10-23T22:46:00.000+07:00

... justin bieber - one less lonely girl ...
[singging]

Alright let's go
There's gonna be one less lonely girl (one less lonely girl)
One less lonely girl (one less lonely girl)
There's gonna be one less lonely girl (one less lonely girl)
One less lonely girl (ha)

--- day 25 ---

goal

2011-10-22T23:36:00.001+07:00

... some goals of the human living ...
*listening from the radio

1. Born to acquire
2. Born to bond
3. Born to comprehend
4. Born to defend

Goal 1
I do my work for continuing my life to get a better life (our old messages)
Money isn't everything >> true
And without money, we can't do anything too >> absolutely true
So I'm not a naive, I'm working to get money, but I don't working for money.
Honestly, this world would be better if there isn't money. Money makes lots of difference here..

Goal 2
Yeah, I like this part so much. We do as social beings, we bond each other.
It's about how to build relationship with the others.

Goal 3
Till' now, I learn to comprehend about everything..
Why I am here? What should I do? What is exactly 'my role' in this life? etc.. etc....
This goal is the hardest, because all I can do is comprehend by doing
* writing this post is a kind of comprehending too

Goal 4
Aaaa, this is our human nature..
When we are in trouble, even we are right or wrong, we would defend ourselves.

And believe me, after you read all of those goals, you'll agree with the statements below..
Everything is self-centered (cih....)

--- day 26 ---

unyuuu boy (again)

2011-10-21T23:56:00.002+07:00

... almost forgotten ...

October is month of family..
It means lots of activities in every weekend ^^

Although the number of participants slightly,
I still enjoy every moment on it

Last week, I played table tennis
*I can't play tonight, because there are deadlines >_<

And I also played "dakon" (traditional's game)
Please, look at my enemy's expression here..

I snap it secretly

I fought a lil' boy !?!?!?
I felt dilemma between:
feeling of wanting to win + slowly tortured him because his face
AND
I feel sorry because he was pouting + his face (again)

So, the major reason is HIS face (LoL)
Anyway, I like lil' bro or lil' sis ^^
* the unyuuu one

--- day 27 ---

smell the rain

2011-10-20T23:31:00.001+07:00

... it's raining ...

Yahoooooo, it's raining again
Raining without thunder in the night is so romantic ^^
I love their scent & rhythm too
It's soooooo refreshing and relieving stress

And when this moment happens,
I remember these songs:
Golden Memories - Rhythm Of The Rain
Bonnie Pink - It's Gonna Rain
unyuuuuuu~~~

--- day 28 ---

sprain everywhere

2011-10-19T22:44:00.000+07:00

... here, there, and everywhere ...

Day-1
I played table tennis with passion. I entered the final round and met my father there. We didn't need to continue the game, because we were the winners ^^
My perform is still good, I feel proud on it..
As a bonus, I got sprain in right arm >_<

Day-2
The next day, lot's of people said: "it's hooot..", so I decided to go to swim in the afternoon.
I always love the blue world, the world that is honest to me..
I warmed up properly, and I found my right arm was better, but I got sprain in left thigh >_<

Day-3
I forgot about my activities, but the sprain moved to my right little finger >_<

And this is the most painful sprains ToT

--- day 29 ---

countdown 30

2011-10-18T10:24:00.000+07:00

... 30 days from now ...

I'll meet you again
can't wait 'till those day

and I will enjoy day by day,
as you said: everyday is holiday

--- xixixi ---

that woman

2011-10-17T22:11:00.002+07:00

A woman loves you
The woman loves you wholeheartedly
She follows you around like a shadow every day
She smiles but is actually crying

How much longer do I just have to look at you, alone
This love that came like wind,
This love that is like a shit,
If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer, just a little bit
Please don’t step back
I, the one who loves you, is still next to you
That woman is crying

That woman is very shy
So she learnt how to smile
Her heart is so full of tear,
She can't even share her story with her best friend

That's why, that woman loved you
Cause you were so like her another fool
yet another fool
Please give me a hug before you leave me

I want to be loved, dear
That's all I wanted
She shouts, just in her heart, just in her heart
No one can hear her, but that woman is still next you

Do you know that,
I am that woman?

You don't do you?

Because you are just a fool

How much
How much longer
Do I have to love you like this?

This love that is like a fool
This love that is like a beggar

Would you love me?

That woman,
who loves you
is still next you and she is still crying

I have always been there

2011-10-16T23:04:00.003+07:00

she was in galau-mode (again)
and for me, her 'galau body language' is very funny
all I can do is 'support' cho2 ^^

story 01

I do not know what was happening

story 02

I have always been there

"the coolest best girl-friend"
omoo.. omoooooo....

bad mouth

2011-10-15T22:36:00.000+07:00

and the babo is ....

I should learn how to arrange 'my words'
Every single word that come out from this mouth

statement, opinion, question, joke, idea, attention, affection, anger, sadness

It just a kind of self-defense
to protect my teritory, my green zone,
to protect me, myself

That's why sometimes I choose to keep in silent,
because I don't want to hurt anybody
or get hurt by somebody

Because there's love in there..

And the fact, both silent or not,
that's still hurting

And because there's love in there..

--- (sometimes) love is painful ---

what human want

2011-10-14T21:34:00.001+07:00

... about human needs ...

This morning I listened to the radio and get some things..

What do WOMEN want?
Affection, Attention, Respect

What do MEN want?
Achievement

--- I think, it's right ---

thanks..

2011-10-13T19:45:00.001+07:00

... thank God ...

I stepped inside the house
and I saw their smile

It's a 'warm' welcome

--- a burden lifted again ---

what if

2011-10-08T16:29:00.001+07:00

... what if ...

what if there is a problem, and you don't know anything,
then the others blame you because of their fault ?

you still don't know what exactly the problem is
and you don't know how suppose to do
while you losing temper or you feeling sad
because of the 'first wave'

that's how I feel right now..
a week that full of silly problems or baka persons
choose whatever you like!!
that's all yours not mine, but I got the rest from you
anyway, thanks..

sorry to say,
do you ever know that I have a feeling too ?

--- just want to close my eyes ---

all about lee

lee seung gi - because we're friends

.

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. . . . . .

. . . . . . .

nothing

not recommended Déjà vu

you know everything ? (part 2)

kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

tic toc tic toc

time oh time

you know everything ?

happy V

concern

little things

kan jong wook - don't cry

first day

feel

message

another definition of music

same night

last night

blank

the power of the brain

glek

new motto

Running Man

our 'OST' song

'scene'

languages ​​of the world

the gembelers

every single tear that dropped was WORTH

K & JH

smiling

problems

....

my last december

A Letter to My Heart

What Love is All About

hello Mr. Rude..

like attracts like

A Greater Treasure than a Friend

December == Holidays

I got my answer

you

change

i'm so black

Dec 09

oups..

just a simple plan

t-ara

domino effect

karma

once upon a time

!=

20112011 [2]

20112011

Nov 23

theme:: fox rain

dag dig dug.. dag dig dug....

it's packing time :p

not this month..

fall in love with HIM

not a hoy-hoy, but a hosh-hosh..

codecademy

7 6 5 4 3 2 1

how come..

don't hesitate

'kesambet'

awkward moments

sms of the week

day of mourning

Hello Mr. Nice Guy

we hate the haters

day 14?

'temporary assignment'

languages of the world