Tuesday, February 28

lee seung gi - because we're friends

gumihooo....

lee seung gi - because we're friends

ulgo inneun ne eokkaereul gamssaryeoda
I was going to embrace your shoulders because you were crying
soneul naeryeonoko marasseo
But I just put my hand down
chingujanha chingujanha chingujanha nan
Because I'm a friend, a friend, a friend
eochapi neoege nan geunyang joheun chingujanha...
I'm just a good friend to you

neorul apeuge handaneun geu nyeoseogeul chajaga ttaerigo sipeotjiman
I want to go to that guy who is hurting you and punch him but
motajanha motajanha motajanha nan
I can't, I can't I can't
geurae bwatja neoui chingu isangeun nan andwaenikka
Anyway, I can't be anything more than just a friend

*
neoreul walkak ango ipsureul kkok matchugo
I want to suddenly hug you, kiss you on the lips
nollaneun neol dallaemyeo o neol
Comfort you, who would be surprised
haebokhage hal sarameun narago
And be the one who will make you happy
malhago sipjiman jumeolgeul kkwak jwijiman
I want to tell you these things but I only clench my fist
gyeolgugen mal motae nan o nan
Eventually, I can't say those words
bigeophage nae gaseume pinggyereul dae, chingujanha..
Like a coward, I make an excuse for my heart - we're just friends

ppeon han neoui geojeori nan museowoseo
Because I'm afraid of your obvious rejection
chingujocha mot hal geot gataseo
Because we might not be able to even be friends
saranghae neol saranghae neol saranghae neol nan
I love you, I love you, I love you
geu hanmadi neoege jeonhago sipeun mareul sumgyeo
I hide those words that I want to tell you

* repeat

haruman deo gidarimyeon nareul hoksi bwa jujin anheulkka
If I wait one more day, I wonder if you will look at me
uneun neoreul bol ttaemada
Every time I see you crying
gaseum teojil deut yeori bada ureo
I get so mad that my heart feels like it will burst and cry

naega apeun mankeu nae mamdo apeujiman
Although I hurt as much as you hurt
nunmureul samkiji man o nan
Although I swallow my tears
hangeoreumdo deoneun ne gyeote motga
I can't go a step closer to you
chinguraneun mallo nae mameul sogimyeonseo
I deceive my heart saying that we're just friends
babocheorom ulmyeonseo gyesok
And like a fool, I just cry inside
geoteuroman joheun saramcheorom malhae chingujanha
And on the outside, pretending to be a good person, I just say, we're friends

.

just forget about it

--- day 1 ---

Monday, February 27

. .

I just wonder,
when I can find my 'identical twin' ?

although she didn't know me well,
at least, she would do some act that I should do for her
and it makes me feel better

--- day 2 ---

Sunday, February 26

. . .

another songs,
I'll sing when in this condition

2NE1 - I Don't Care
CL & Minzy - Please Don't Go
2NE1 - GO Away

--- day 3 ---

Saturday, February 25

. . . .

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
'perfect' song
and doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone


You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in colour
And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you

You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You try to break me, but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking about me
You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning
In the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

[2x]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

--- day 4 ---

Friday, February 24

. . . . .

DO YOU?

--- day 5 ---

Thursday, February 23

. . . . . .

just a single prayer
and I got the answer next
# praise the Lord

pheeeeeew,
I hope it wasn't just a sign
I need more than that

I DO,
because I have lots of reasons..
DO you?

--- day 6 ---

Wednesday, February 22

. . . . . . .

setting a reminder
if nothing happens within 7 days,
I give up

people never change
or I was the same as before

a risk gambling,
all in,
just prepare for the worst

--- day 7 ---

Tuesday, February 21

nothing

... today was a day of mad for me ...

Start with the alarm clock that didn't ring
then woke up in a hurry at my departure hour
just washed face and brushed teeth quickly
I didn't eat, even drink too # woot

Everyone still slept,
and I couldn't say hello or even a bubye T__T
geeeeeez..

Go out with no preparation at all == ....

Right now,
I realized that all missions (for today) fall apart
I was going for nothing [mangaaaaaap..]
Aaaaaah, I don't want to responsible if I can't make it again
lalalalaaa~~~ # entertain myself

At least,
I have a lil story that made me smile and proud
When Simbok is at home,
If we go home, she would be happy to open the door for us, welcome warmly and ask about our day..
If we have to leave the house, she would open the door for us, make sure that nothing left behind, give some messages and advices, say goodbye, and see our departure..

Nothing can change this scene, and I am blessed with all of these
It would be our beautiful habit too

There's always room for family - Vin Diesel (Fast Five)

--- naaaaaah, looking for another 'nothing' ---

not recommended Déjà vu

... as time goes by ...

Sometimes,
when you give up on someone,
it's not because you don't care anymore,
but because you realize they don't..

As time goes by, I can forget it..
But, every time I see it (accidental)
I still get my 'DEGH' moment
# burden that never goes away, sigh..

--- a-u-uq ---

Monday, February 20

you know everything ? (part 2)

Hmmmmmm,
I really couldn't make it..

Was there any regret? Of course, baboo..
D-2, D-1, D-day, H-6, H-3, H-2, H-1, H-0, H++
I was thinking about what could I do there with them
# only my imagination (ngueneeez.com)

Now I can't mess with time, it's so risky..
and sacrifices must be made again
# over and over again

Anyway, I always be grateful to know them
One of them said that, she was afraid to be separated from the lovely people right now. While those thought has appeared many years ago in my mind, even to this day, this time.
At least, we had the same feeling, the same basic right now, then we could realize what is the 'important' thing..

# I took from from Oprah's statement
It's a honour for me..

# and this is mine
I'm not looking for a 'sorry' or 'thank',
'cause I'm looking for you..

--- my answers from my bottom of my heart ---

Sunday, February 19

kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

let's make a better mood
s.m.i.l.e

kim jong kook ft soya - you know everything

jal jinaeneun deutan neoui hwanhan misoe
Whenever I see you living well and smiling brightly
naui maeum hanguseogi jakku apajyeo oneunde
A corner of my heart keeps hurting
bangaun deut utgo taeyeonhan cheok haebwado
I put on a happy smile and pretend to be calm
nado mollae tteollyeooneun moksoril neoneun aneunji
I know that you know that my voice is trembling

eotteoke jinaenneunji hago sipeotdeon mal manhanneunde
I want to ask you how you're doing
hanmadi geonneji motan chae doraseosseo
I want to tell you many things but nothing comes out and I turn back

[*]
da almyeonseo (da almyeonseo) jal almyeonseo (jal almyeonseo)
You know everything (know everything) You know it well (know it well)
eokjiuseum jitneun nareul da almyeonseo
You know when I put on a forced smile
mianhaeseo (mianhaeseo) dasi naegero dorawa
I am sorry (sorry) Come back to me again
malhaji motaneun nal almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

(As time goes by) baby you’re my boy
(As time goes by) baby you’re my girl
(You’re my love) you’re the only one

sigani galsurok jakku tteooreuneun geon
As time goes by it keeps coming back to me
jomdeo jalhaejuji motan naui jalmotdeulppuniya
How it was my fault for not treating you better
geuttaen wae geureoke babo gatasseonneunji
That time why was I being such a fool
honja mianhadan malman doe noeigo isseul ppuniya
I keep playing it in my mind saying I'm sorry

ijeuryeo noryeokhaedo jiul su eomneun geon neoui gieok
I try to forget but I couldn't erase the memory of you
cheoeumen itorok apeul jul mollanneunde
In the beginning I didn't know it would be this painful

[*]
da almyeonseo (da almyeonseo) jal almyeonseo (jal almyeonseo)
You know everything (know everything) You know it well (know it well)
eokjiuseum jitneun nareul da almyeonseo
You know when I put on a forced smile
mianhaeseo (mianhaeseo) dasi naegero dorawa
I am sorry (sorry) Come back to me again
malhaji motaneun nal almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

nae mami neoreul nochi motae an doeneun geol almyeonseodo
My heart can't let you go I know that
babo gateun nan ajikkkajido neoreul jabeuryeo hae
The foolish me still trying to catch you

da almyeonseo jal almyeonseo
I know everything I know it well
ijeul su eomneun geol nado da almyeonseo
I know that I can't forget you
nae aneseo neoreul beoril su eomneun geol
I can't get you out from inside of me
malhaji anhado da almyeonseo
I couldn't say anything but you know me

(As time goes by) baby you’re my boy
(As time goes by) baby you’re my girl
(You’re my love) you’re the only one

Thursday, February 16

tic toc tic toc

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I can't make it..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

--- waiting for the miracle ---

time oh time

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I need a longer time

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm always working on it

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I even always in a hurry for it

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

However, in the end, I've run out of time

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

so, decisions were made

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm not chasing anymore

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

--- this is the last ---

Wednesday, February 15

you know everything ?

... [singging] ...

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I played this song many times in 3 hours

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

only a song, this song

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

sometimes, I imagined KJK & YEH for a while

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

hmmmmmm, it's hot tonight,
melting.. melting.. melting..

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

no matter what happens

(As time goes by) baby you're my boy
(As time goes by) baby you're my girl
(You're my love) you’re the only one

I'm in a good mood
and I love this song

--- hold on, hoold on, hooold on ---

Tuesday, February 14

happy V

... loph ...

You can still steal 'it' from me
I don't mind, and I never mind
(don't want to miss a thing)

--- still the same ---

Sunday, February 12

concern

... quote ...

At the end of the day
it doesn't matter what people think.

The people that care about you, and people you care [about]
are the only ones you can really be concerned with and, to,
to have those relationships be right [is] enough work!

You don’t have to worry about other people's opinions,
cause everybody has one.

Laird Hamilton

--- aye aye Sir Hamiilton ---

little things


The small details of your lives
are what really matter in a relationship.
It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank.
These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend
and do those little things for each other
that build intimacy.

--- (always) on my position ---

Wednesday, February 8

kan jong wook - don't cry

another song,
that can make me strong

kan jong wook - don't cry
(Royal Family Ost.)

goyohaejin i sesangeseo all alone
I am in this world, all alone
eoreobuteun maeumeun
Cold-hearted
tto eoneusae deo gipge seumyeodeun
Without knowing, it has gone deep
nunmureun let it go
Tears let it go

buseojin gieok han jogagi on my mind
In broken memories, there is something, on my mind
gaseum sok jeo kkeut han saram keep inside
At end of my heart, there is someone, keep inside

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
I’ll carry you all through the night.
I’ll carry you all through the night.
eonjerado geureoke
Anytime, I will do so

eodirodo galsuga eomneun my heart
Not going anywhere, my heart
ipsul dwie sumeoseo
Hide behind your lips
jeomjeom deo kkaejyeoganeun yuriga doeeo
Slowly I am broken into pieces,
I don’t know if I can go on, jigeumcheoreom
I don’t know if I can go on, Just like now

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
Don’t cry
Don’t cry

buseojyeogan gieok jogakdeuri tto
In my broken memories,
naege soksagimyeo chatneun only one
You whisper to me, only one
nunbicheun tto ireoke break me down again.
Your eyes, break me down again
Don’t bring me down
Don’t bring me down

Don’t cry, bulgeun nunmure
Don’t cry, burning hot tears
Don’t cry, samkin hansume
Don’t cry, when you’ve taken it all in
Hear me? muneojyeo gal ttae
Hear me, when you fall
whenever you need, just lean on me.
whenever you need, just lean on me

Don’t cry, gapgaphan haru
Don’t cry, on a tough day
Don’t cry, gadeukhaedo
Don’t cry, even it’s too much
Hear me? jogeum swigo sipeul ttaen
Hear me, when you want a break
I’ll carry you all through the night.
I’ll carry you all through the night.
eonjerado geureoke
Anytime, I will do so

Download song :: kan jong wook - don't cry

Sunday, February 5

first day

... my boarding room ...

Before
(-___-!) empty space

After
+sweeping +mopping +cleaning + preparing
got pink there, lil'cushion n a blanket
(-______-!) and still empty too

I don't even have a mirror in here >___<
a fan for freshener
supply of water for drinking
my pillows and bolsters, their softness
aaaaaaaaargh....
kotak kotak bunder bunder palang segitiga palang

Still the same room like before, but with different conditions..
and different missions too

Take it easy, lee..
The first day is always a tough day

(uhuk-uhuuuk..) I mean 10 tough days

--- ngenez.com ---

Saturday, February 4

feel

... forget ...


plus
don't forget
people felt it when you didn't do anything
[lee]

--- don't forget ---

message

... if you are sensitive one ...

# someone refers to me

--- then, these messages are really for you ---
unfortunately, you aren't

Thursday, February 2

another definition of music

... music is my life ...

just Lee + listening music + with headset

then, feeling the beat

sorry to say,
I wouldn't care anything

--- escaping from life ---

Wednesday, February 1

same night

... c.n.blue - teardrops in the rain ...

[singging]
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
Teardrops in the rain

--- raining night ---